Please Don't Leave Me!

The Story

Sometimes I wonder how much for relationship or just how much for you to like me? I would give you everything even, I know you're this expensive? But since when did you gain such an attitude? When did got this blindfold in front of your eyes, why are you acting like you can't see it, it's so f°ckin obvious. Almost every day that I'm here, I walk by and just say some random compliments and you're here like you're ignoring me, why? What would any other guy give for someone, who brighteness their day just with some stup°d compliments. Like I just walk by and say that you look handsome today and you just roll your eyes on like it was nothing, (or maybe I'm just overreacting) or when we are working and I say that you look good as always, you're ignoring me and giving me the sillent treatment like my parents did, so what now, do you regret it, that it's too late? I know maybe, not all of us din't had a beatiful childhood, I know that there are exeptions like us who had trauma all along. I'm sorry for apologizing all the time, or trying to fix some things that can not be fixed. In this current time, I feel like I'm living like this song named Stressed Out by Twenty one pilots. But no one can change you past, all you have to do, is to forget it and focus on your future. And overthinking is just killing your mental health and your brain. 

So here we go the story, how we met.

(PAST)

It all begun at a summer camp. I was there with some other friends from school and some that I have just met. But then I saw my best friend, we literally ran up to each other and hugged. Yea we missed each other so much, because he/she/they/them lives on the other side of the Czech Republic. It was a summer camp for a two weeks. The adults grouped us into small teams and we played together  like a hunting hames the whole two weeks or like something like hide n seek or like that.  

I was just chilling with my friends enjoying our soda and popsicles in the shadow under the tree, it was so hot, that day. The adults even canceled the whole day trip and let us live. Other kids where swimming in the lake and the others were playing like hide n seek or chase the others with a pond weed on stick. It was fun until you had pond weed on you face. I was sitting under that tree and writing my memories down into a small diary and drawing small doodles around the diary. Yea what a good time it was not to think about, what you have to do in future. Just have fun, go swimming, go out with friends or ride horses and have more fun. And you don't have to care about, how many hours you have to work per moth, to pay your loan for a small flat or how to pay the taxes. Just be a kid was fun. (Now it's all different and difficult. I had to move out due to the abusive parents, because it was killing my mental health and my anxiety plus that morning sickness was even worse and now it's all better now.) 

So like every summer camp goes through we played the team games and then when they gave us free time. Then another  game we played was like, they adults have hidden like an easter eggs and we had to find them to get another clues, to win the game. Ok, so after we had free time before lunch, I was just fooling with my friends and then she came up to me and inroduced her self to us or I think it was only for me. We became friends quickly at the summer camp, but I think, I was to blind, not no see it, how fake she was... One day I asked her, how to ask a guy out, because I didn't know, how of course. So then I asked her if she could ask him, if he likes me or not, of couse she lied to me. But then the next day I saw her with him holding hands and kissing. My brain was like "I'm done here now" so then that's how you get trust issues bruh. So she was like this the whole camp, showing it into my face like she won some award or you know. So then, I don't know if this is some sort of bullying or not but she was so mean to me the rest of the camp. And then she was trying to pretend like she's better in everything then me, so what would you do in my place? Is this normal, does this seems ok to you? For me not, then my best friend saved me from her bullying. But I don't know how to escape her, I wish, I din't have to meet her in the future.

  How is it now

(PRESENT TIME)

It seems as a normal day to me. I woke up, eat some snacks and go to work. It was summer holiday and just got my first job. (Ok, don't laugh at me, yes I work at Mc Donald's, everyone have to start somewhere). So I went to the locker room to get changed into my uniform and at the work place we go.

I was minding my own business, when someone approached me and asked if, I maybe know her or like that. Another day went by. After a week or two, we were all the time staring at each other to figure it out we might know each other. Then I walked up to her and asked her, if she was at the summer camp. And she said yes, so it was really her, not again please... Like right now I was reliving my biggest nightmare.

So like as always, I tried my best not to kill her, for was she did to me in the past, but lets just focus on the future won't we? I tried to befriend with her, but she did the same sh°t again. I got there more earlier then her. So like I got the place before her and got to know the people here. And I fell in love with a guy that no one liked. So like it all started 1.7. 2022, I tried to make some moves and give him not to much obvious hints that I like him. Or just on normal daily basis, I just walked by and said hi, or that he's cute in those glasses or like that he's handsome and like this stuff you know. She just saw all of my hints and took the advantage of me, for being shy and she literally put like blind fold in front of his eyes. I was dumbfounded how evil she's still and even cruel. How could a normal human being, do such a thing like this, that's not normal. So I realized, she haven't changed even a bit, but that, what she did is nasty. Ewww no thanks. 

A/N- hi guys, I need help, how should I write the love letter for him... And somehow I need to get rid of her. Because she a walking nighmare into the lifes of others, or am I overreacting again? No, I don't thinks so...