Should I get Seperated?

I stood up for myself the first time

I am tired of my husband's violence. I Cant take anymore of this shit. It has effected me and my children so much. I dont want them to see these abuses I am being put through by Rascal. I have had enough. No more.

Anna I came to you for help when Rascal was having an affair. You are his mother and I expected you to know what is right and wrong. He was hiding it behind the lies that I was having an affair instead. He was buying flowers and visiting me every weekend as if he was missing me. And you believed all that rubbish and you went against me. You got your assistant and the building security to keep an eye on me. You kept calling me and questioning me about my whereabouts all the time. Rascal was busy chatting, calling and messaging his gf during the whole time he visited me even when he forced me to sleep with him by locking the doors. He called her immediately after he was done with me by locking me outside the bedroom. Only I know the pain I went through.

You believed me only after I showed you the evidence of his chat messages. You made me accept his relationship again. I did it because you and Alex assured me that you have given enough advice to your son and he now understands his mistakes and the importance of family and he will not cheat on me again. When I was pregnant the second time also, he started having an affair. I sent you those chat messages again. I cried for months together when I was pregnant with Amy. Myself and Rascal had family counselling with his psychiatrist on phone. You made me accept your son again back into my life. I did.

Rascal started calling and speaking to that woman whom I had asked him not to have any relationship with her. That woman and Rascal made me stand for more than an hour in the American embassy when they were sitting and talking happily watching me. The security and everybody else felt sorry for seeing me carrying a one year old child for so long when my own husband was busy talking to another woman. They sent me in out of turn so that I dont need to suffer like that. God bless those men! When Me, Rascal and Adam - my son were going in, Rascal asked that girl also to accompany. The security asked is she with you? Rascal said yes. And I told the security No, she is not family she works with him in office. Hearing this, the security asked her to sit back and we were left through.

On our way to meet the official, Rascal was annoyed and was demanding Why I answered like that. He said I was rude. He said I should help people when it was possible. He said I should have made sure that girl wasnt made to wait like that. I gave him if it was right to make me stand like that? He was stunned that I question him like that. That was the first time when I stood up for myself.

He told me to be quite and people were watching when there was only one security far away. He told me not to spoil his career for Something so silly. He told me that He Didnt realise because he was talking seriously. I asked him Why he couldnt see me standing in front of him. He replied he thought Thats what I wanted so he was quiet. I asked him what was the serious discussion? He said it was about her career. She wanted some direction and he was helping her out. I have heard this reason so many times in this 10 years of marriage. Everytime he fools around with other women, he says he was mentoring them. I am fed up.