I: What did I do wrong?

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No matter what I did, I always ended up in this accursed chair. Each time I sit here I wonder what did I do wrong? Did I not hold her hand enough? Was I not helpful enough? Should I have been quicker to save her? It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair! A sob broke out of my mouth. In my head over and over all I could say was it wasn't fair. I was filled with overwhelming feelings of loathing, misery and yet deep down I wasn't completely mad at her. I know it's part of a loop, Six just doesn't understand. I don't think she remembers. I just want to get us out of this, I will get us out of this. I'll save Six and I both, and we'll be able to live together somewhere safe.

For now though, I have to wait. I have to wait for the feeling of the eyes to stop being so crushing, for me to fall into that dreamlike trance again where I see the tv. I'll go through it, and while another version of me stays here in this chair growing and warping into the thin man, I will go back to that spot in the woods. I'll find Six and this time we'll get out. This time I won't let anything happen to her. I promise.

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