lana del rey one shots

43. "make me one"

nuhuh idk
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Amber walked back in the bedroom, fresh out of shower as she saw Lana sitting on the floor next to the luggage and searching for something.
"what's up, lovergirl?" Amber sighed, unwrapping the towel from around her head and tying her hair in a ponytail.
"did we pack–"
"i did, don't worry."
"no, i mean my meds and–"
"i checked them first, baby," Amber smiled softly; Lana's anxiety attacks and sleeping problems were getting tougher recently, probably because of the upcoming shows as she had not done any in forever and the usual album stress, so she was back to the meds whenever she needed them, "i double checked everything while you were having your bath.. don't worry and come sleep. we have a lot tomorrow," Amber sighed softly, dropping her towel as she threw on a shirt, "come," Amber crawled on the bed and lifted the covers for Lana to get in.
"you did everything again," Lana sighed, her shoulders slouching softly almost in guilt as she looked at Amber uneasily.
"come here," Amber patted a place next to herself and dimmed the light, signalling for Lana to let go. Lana sighed, wrapping her arms around herself as she walked closer and got in the bed, subconsciously shifting closer to Amber, "hi," Amber smiled widely and kissed Lana's face, immediately wrapping her arms around her.
"hey," Lana sighed heavily, hiding herself in Amber's chest.
"what's up?"
"you have been doing everything for me for like.. past week or something. i am not incapable–"
"i know. i want to help," Amber kissed Lana's forehead softly, bringing her closer, "you packed, i just checked everything. i just want to be there for you right now.. you're nervous, i want to unload that from your shoulders.. everything i can," Amber placed small kisses on Lana's forehead, "relax, i got you."
"i love you," Lana whispered softly, her hands holding tight on the fabric of Amber's shirt on her back as she hugged her.
"love you more.. sleep, yeah?" Amber frowned, hearing Lana sigh and feeling her frown in her neck.
"you should go sleep in another bedroom, baby," Lana sighed, kissing the bare area on Amber's cleavage, "i'll be probably turning the whole night... won't sleep either. you should though," Amber silently kissed Lana's head, holding her close as she basically did not answer, "you heard me."
"i did."
"so?"
"so i think you should stop overthinking everything and let me decide for myself," Amber smiled softly, hearing Lana exhale annoyed. Amber silently placed her hand on the back of Lana's head, gently stroking her hair and the back of her neck.
"it won't work this time," Lana mumbled, "you should–"
"shut up," Amber kissed the top of Lana's head, her arms wrapped around her, left hand softly rubbing her back, while the right one was slowly playing with her hair. Amber was determined to make sure Lana slept well that night; they were going to her first show in forever, she did not know whether Lana would sleep in the plane. Amber softly rubbed behind Lana's ear and leaned down, kissing her forehead and staying in that position, pressing her lips to her forehead. she had to keep herself from smiling as she felt Lana relax physically in her arms first: her body became soft and seemingly warmed up as she almost melted in Amber's hands. Lana then turned around and slid back close to Amber, mumbling something softly, when she felt Amber quickly adjust to the new position, her arm sneaking around her waist and under her shirt, her lips now pressed to her clothed shoulder. Amber kept her little affections up by softly tracing Lana's soft stomach with her fingertips, also putting her leg over Lana's under the covers. soon enough Amber felt that Lana's breathing got calmer and slower; she was asleep.

Amber sighed softly, checking her watch on her wrist. it was 4.37 in the morning. she sighed softly, her hand still absentmindedly caressing Lana's stomach; she has been doing this the whole night. once she would barely stop, Lana was starting to wake up and she did not want that. she had her lips pressed to her shoulder still as she scratched softly Lana's rib before carefully getting up. she had to get the stuff they still had out in the hand baggage and make sure everything was intact, so she could let Lana sleep more and wake her up only when they had to leave for the airport.