this is me trying, spn [ 3 ]

018. struggling

The brothers, Libby, Ophelia, Nathan, Billy, and Daphne are in the kitchen and eating breakfast. Although, Libby is playing with her food more than eating it. Natalie, Jacob, and the twins left a couple days ago to spend some time alone, Natalie reconnecting with all three of them. Athena is off playing having already eaten and Larissa still hasn't gotten out of her bed.

Sam had spent a few days in bed but finally found the strength to get up, knowing he couldn't wallow in pain. Plus he had to be there for the others and make sure Athena is still doing okay, the girl not knowing why her mom refuses to get up.

"All right, so what have you found on her Majesty's Secret Suckbags?" Dean asks his brother.

"Well, I may have turned the bunker upside down looking for any reference whatsoever to the British Men of Letters and all I found was this letter tucked into an old ledger, uh, from the London Chapterhouse." Sam says.

"Okay, well, that's something." Dean says.

"Yeah, uh... not so much." Sam shows the mostly blacked out letter.

"Awesome." Dean remarks and notices Cas walk in, standing in the entryway. "Morning, sunshine. Some coffee?"

"No, thank you. I have to go." Cas says, walking off. The brothers share a look and follow him, Ophelia following.

"Cas?" Sam calls.

"Cas, wait up." Dean says.

"Hey, wait a second. Where you off to?" Sam asks. Cas stops and turns to them.

"Cleveland, Ohio." Cas says.

"For what?" Sam asks.

"I think I may have a lead on Lucifer. I found a police report in Cleveland about a man whose eyes flared a glowing red. It could be Lucifer in a new body." Cas says.

"All right. Yeah, that sounds like something. We should go check it out." Dean says.

"No. The devil is free because of me. Finding him is my responsibility." Cas says.

"Cas, you're gonna want some backup on this." Sam says.

"If it is him, I will call you. In the meantime, I believe you're needed here." Cas walks away.

"The hell was that about?" Dean asks.

"Mom?" Sam suggests. "Or Lissy." He adds quietly.

"What are you talking about? Mom's fine." Dean says as they walk back into the kitchen.

"You sure? I heard her walking around all night last night. I mean, don't you think she seems a bit... withdrawn? You know, shaky?" Sam asks as the brothers and Ophelia sit back down.

"Of course she's shaky. She hasn't been on this planet since Jane Fonda was wearing leg warmers. Look, all she needs is a little R&R. You know, some good family time... she'll be aces." Dean says.

"Yeah." Sam mumbles. "But at least, you know... Nat's doing okay. Kids are already attached to her again and everything."

"Yeah." Dean nods.

"Hey." The brothers greet as they notice Mary walk in.

"Hey. Hi." Mary says.

"Hey. Morning." Sam tells her.

"Ooh." Mary goes to the plate of bacon on the table, picking a piece up.

"Oh, we can fry up some more. That's-- that's probably cold by now, mom." Sam says.

"It's bacon." Mary says.

"Wow. We are so related." Dean grins.

"Did you cut your hair?" Sam asks, noticing the change in his mom's hair.