LAVENDER HAZE [YOON JEONGHAN]

CH: 10

Luna

I looked at my watch and sighed, I wanted to be there on time. I didn't want to miss a single day. It's been a month I haven't seen him, and every day I regret it and feel bad. Why couldn't I meet him that day and tell him why couldn't I come?

I stood infront of the café, it's the same time, I told him we will meet again a month ago. I took a deep breath before entering, there was an unknown feeling lingering inside me today since morning. I was impatient with my classes today and went to visit the clinic briefly but then I was dragged here with and without my will. It's like my heart just told me to go.

I know I visited her every day but he was nowhere to be found. I went to order first, I'm sure the receptionist recognizes me by this time, the way I come here regularly... and for one reason mainly. I had to tell him and apologize to him secondly I started liking this café a lot.

"One hot chocolate please" I smiled at her and she seemed happy today. After paying I turned back to look at the seat, where I sit, more like the seat where we talked that day.

I was about to look out for that place when my eyes caught someone's back.

I let out a small gasp, I tried not to run towards him; I kept on walking towards him.

I took a deep breath before speaking, "Jeonghan?"

I just couldn't tell him, how my heart was at ease the moment he looked at me, I didn't know what was I feeling right now, the happiness to see him again, or was it normal to feel like this when you see the person you missed a lot.

Wait, did I just-

Admit that-

I missed him?

I shrugged off the thoughts, he looked different today... lost...unable to say anything... was he pissed? Was he angry? Does he hate me now? I tried calling out his name again.

"Jeonghan?"

"Oh" his reply was not usual.

"It's you" I was feeling guilty, he never looked at me like this, he never felt like this. His presence was always warm and gave me warmth. There was something I only felt with him, although our meetings were very brief and it was hardly even more than five times.

"I never saw you after that day, I've been searching for you since that day. And about that day, I always wanted to apologize to you and that's why I used to come here just for you, I was searching for you each and every day in a hope" I took a deep breath, and realized only I knew the efforts I put for him, so that I could apologize for that one day which I couldn't help because of emergencies, I was about to continue and tell him everything but his words stopped me from speaking.

"You can take a seat here first and then we can talk" his eyes softened I felt it, I saw it.

I took a seat opposite to him, it was my usual seat where I sit and used to wait for him till today. "I'm sorry." He was taken aback, his face told me.

"You never came" his voice was very low, I was lost in his voice.
"Jeonghan... I couldn't come that day. I'm really sorry." I sighed, I knew he was hurt, I could see it on his face. He was trying, trying not to say anything to me. I took a deep breath and told him, "That one day was my mistake, I couldn't help it because of one emergency but after that one day I came everyday just for you but you never showed up until today. Even today I came here running after my shift was over just in the same time; the time we decided to meet up that day. I used to come at the same time everyday."

He was staring at me, I wanted to ask him what was he feeling. Was he angry and hurt? Or was he pissed at me? or was he hurt or does he hate me now? I wanted to know. I gathered up my courage and looked at him before speaking up.

"Jeonghan... were you angry because I didn't come that day and was that the reason you never showed up...? I was hesitant and before he could say anything, I apologized "SORRY"

"Jeonghan?" I called him again, he looked so lost, I waved my hand infront of him. He was startled, I took this chance and again apologized to him, "I'm really sorry Jeonghan" I sincerely apologized to him again, hoping he would understand me.

"I came that day" his voice sounded a bit deeper than usual, almost giving me chills. "I thought you didn't want to meet me and I was stood up. I was thinking about it again and again, wondering what if you never wanted to meet me? So, I felt it might get awkward if we meet again, so I stopped coming from next day at the same time; so that I won't make you uncomfortable."

And here I was thinking about you everyday, my mind couldn't stop thinking about you for this whole one month, what about that?

If only I had time to come over and tell you, if only I had a chance to tell you earlier, if only I had a chance to turn back time, nothing like this would've happened.

All these days, I didn't know why was I so invested in you but now that you're infront of me, I almost forgot everything.

He stopped looking at the table and looked at me, the moment he looked at me, thoughts washed all over me and it hit me, I met Jeonghan, and after one whole month.

He was looking at me, felt like he was hesitant but I wished he would just speak, he smiled at me and asked me "so, as an apology how about we go and visit a new café?"

His smile was the thing I missed the most.

"Does that mean-
"I also work Luna, I know how important it can be at times and I understand about emergencies, I am not someone who would hold you back while working and ask you to stay with me when you've any emergencies let it be work or your personal life and it would be your choice to let me know." he paused for a second before speaking again, "I'm glad enough that you decided to tell me the truth rather than making any excuse or avoiding about that day. So, don't apologize anymore."

No one could describe my feelings except for me, because the way I felt only I knew, the heavy weight got lifted. And the fact, he was so understanding about the whole thing, if only I could've told him earlier. It's better to tell now rather than never.

I gave him a smile.

"thankyou so much for understanding" he smiled at me and I felt a tingle in my heart and felt warmth all over me.

Author’s Note:

Finally found the time and motivation to write and update, thankyou for waiting <3 hope you like this update, hoping and waiting to know your review <33 also what do you think gonna happen next?

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