LAVENDER HAZE [YOON JEONGHAN]

CH: 16

Jeonghan

“I am so sorry Jeonghan, I really didn’t think they would call me like this without any notice?” I knew work was always cruel to us, like how would I even celebrate my birthday without my bestfriend. And the fact, he called me at midnight to wish me and then dropped this notice on me. The fact Seungcheol was the one with whom I enjoyed spending my birthdays, and the same went with him.

I remember once, when I wished him one minute late and his sulky self was back on work, this guy needs all the attention on his birthday, well, a perfect definition of Leo. But for me, it was more like spending time with him, going out, nothing big nothing too small on my birthdays was my thing. And a good dinner was the best way to end my birthday.

I looked at the time and sighed, I didn’t do anything and it felt so lonely today, for the first time, Seungcheol wasn’t with me to spend my birthday. All I did the whole day was watch a movie alone, and try building legos. It was starting to feel like today wasn’t my day because even mom, dad, and sister couldn’t come because of some emergency or else I would’ve spent my dinner with them atleast, they told me they would try to come over for the dinner but they just

I took my phone and started scrolling through all my contacts. I was checking and somehow my eyes landed on one contact, ‘my moon’. My fingers were itching to call her because I wanted to hear her voice, I asked her yesterday when we had a day out but she was busy today and I didn’t want to disturb her or pressurize her for dinner. And I wonder, if she would agree to dinner tonight because we had a whole day out yesterday which means even dinner and on top of that she mentioned she would be busy today.

Somewhere my heart wanted her, to spend dinner with me and wish me ‘happy birthday Jeonghan’ but my mind was busy worrying about the what-ifs.

I was wondering what to do and I was about to scroll through her contact when my fingers accidentally hit the call button.

“SHIT”

I was about to cut the call when I realized what happened but it was too late “Hello?”
I felt my breath was stuck somewhere and I couldn't breathe at all “Jeonghan?” I pulled myself together, “Hello”

Before she could respond I started speaking without even knowing what to tell her, I wasn’t possibly thinking of telling her how miserable and lonely I felt right now but everything depended on her answer “So” I trailed off, without even knowing how I always get dumbfound infront of her. “So?” her voice was making me feel everything I never wanted to go through.

“Are you busy?” I was trying to sound casual, “Umm, kind of, what happened?”

And how was I supposed to tell her about all this now, “Are you…umm…” ‘YOON JEONGHAN SPEAK IT OUT’ My inner devils were speaking out, “Umm, do you…”

“What happened Jeonghan?” can she stop taking my name like that, it’s making it so hard to let me stay sane and speak what’s inside my heart and mind, “Do you want to go out for dinner in an hour?” I let it out in a single go, “Tonight? In one hour?”

“Umm, yes. I know you hate sudden plans, but moon… please?”
“But Jeonghan” please don’t say no, please don’t say no,

“Please don’t say no” I said it aloud subconsciously
“Jeonghan…” I could feel a rejection was coming around, I had no choice but to tell her,

“Please not tonight moon, it’s my birthday and I really don’t want to spend it alone.” I just knew one thing, and that was I sounded very pathetic right now
“Today IS YOUR WHAT???” I facepalmed in realization, that today was the first time I heard her loud voice, wondering how taken aback she was.