the two boys i fell in love with // m.s (2023)

Hopeless

Olivia's POV:
I saw Matt waiting outside, and I quickly wiped the tears away as I walked over to him.
"Hi..." I say faking a smile.
"You know, you don't have to act like that around me." Matt just knows when something's up, he really is the sweetest.
"Act like what?" I asked innocently.
"Act like nothing just happened today in the car."

Matt's POV:
After I had said that I noticed she was on the verge of crying.
"Hey, shhh." I pulled her into a hug in attempt to calm her down.
"Can we uh, go instead?" She asked as I could see her shivering a bit.
"Yeah, of course." I send a sweet smile towards her way as I open the door. Luckily we didn't see Chris walking up the stairs, but I shouldn't say anything to jinx it. Olivia flopped onto my bed quietly whimpering.
"Hey, it's gonna be ok... you can talk to me you know?" I say sitting on the bed facing her. I know this won't make her feel any better knowing that she knows she can talk to me anytime. All Olivia did was turn to the other side.

"Is this about Chris?" I asked rubbing her lightly on the leg. Olivia simply nods. I lay down wrapping my arms around her waist keeping her accompanied. As her quiet whimpers got calmer and calmer, her breath became calm and contained. The urge I had to fight back to tell Olivia my feelings was hard. It's been hard since I was little. Me and my brothers meet Olivia in kindergarten, and have been really close ever since. Well let's just say I've liked Olivia since 1st grade, and it was really hard to keep from my brothers and Olivia. Especially Olivia. Olivia's muscles became light, nothing tense that I can feel or see. Sometimes I wish Chris could just back off of her. She's been through so much, and she doesn't need to deal with Chris's bullshit as well. As I was overwhelmed with my own thoughts I eventually feel asleep.

Olivia's POV:
I awoke to a strong grip around my waist. I heard groaning from the back side of me and the grip that was once on my waist was gone. I faked asleep because I wasn't hundred percent ready to get up yet, or even open my eyes. The grip was placed back around me. I felt safe in Matt's arms, like nobody could hurt me. My steady breathing matched Matt's as we peacefully laid there.

I heard a creek at the door, I can feel Matt moving his head up so he could see who opened the door, I just listened. I acted like I was still asleep, like I already have been for the past 5 minutes.
"What are you doing?" Chris asked annoyed.
"Keeping Olivia company and making her feel better because you were being a dick yesterday." Matt stated placing his head back down never leaving his arms to unravel. I couldn't help but smile, Matt was cute when he was protective. He's always been so protective, especially over me.
"Me? A dick? Nah I was just stating the truth. It also seems to be that, you're literally proving my point by cuddling with Olivia." Chris as never been such a bitch before, I wonder what had gotten into him.
"Can you just back off from her?"
"Why would I do that?"
"Because she's been through so much that she doesn't need you to also be bitchy to her." It hurt me inside when the boys fought like this.
"That sounds like a her problem."
"No it's actually a you problem, now fix the problem." Matt was getting angrier and angrier as he argued.
"The problem is seeing her. The only way this could be fixed is if she just, disappeared. Chris went down stairs, and Matt got up racing downstairs. I started to cry knowing Chris just wants me gone for good. You know what. I should just go away for good.

Matt's POV:
"What the fuck was that, Chris!" I yelled possibly waking up the whole house.
"I'm sorry that you can't see what Olivia actually is to this world!"
"And what would that be." I say crossing my arms
"A, burden." Chris bluntly spat out. His demeanor was unacceptable towards Olivia. I hated seeing her hurt like that.
"Sorry you can't see what a sweet person she is. I wasn't going to tell you this but, Olivia really likes you and has for a long time. But all you've done to her was be in your asshole behavior." I kept yelling at him, but after the room went silent... I'm guessing Chris had nothing else to say as he was in complete shook at what I had just said.
"You should say sorry to every action you've ever done or any verbal attack on her."
"Why?" Chris says lowly I'm guessing it's because I told him about Olivia's crush on him.
"Because you've gotten to the point where if I even say your name she cries." Chris looked at the floor.
"What if I don't?" Chris asked.
"In the next car video, I'll do a little talking about how last year at school you."
"Matt stop!" Chris yelled at me.
"So you'll do it?"
"I guess..."

Me and Olivia decided to take the day off of school, and Nick and Chris went to school.
"I'm sorry about Chris." I say. She sighs walking to the bag she pack stuffing a few things in there.
"Where are you going? I asked curiously.
"I heard everything that happened this morning, with you and Chris."
"Oh..."
"I'm leaving, I'll see you tomorrow at school."
"Wait Olivia." Before I could even convince her, she had left.

Olivia's POV:
I sighed and hopped on my bed hopeless of what to do next. I saw the scissors on my desk, I hesitated but eventually took them. Then that's when I did it, I did self harm even after not doing it for 250 days. This is what Chris did to me. I shouldn't let him do this to me, but I can't help but cut myself after hearing the shit he said about me. I decided to take a nap knowing of how hard this is taking on me for my mental health. I wasn't able to fall asleep because if Matt about knew about my self harm addiction, he'll be upset to see me like that. I don't want him to see me as I suicidal bitch that can't keep her shit together, which I am that. As all the thoughts swelled around me I was eventually able to fall off to sleep.

A/n:
Ok but like nobody reads this even how hard I work on them 😭