With Love, N.J.H

Chapter 2

January 13th 2013,

My love,

How are you doing darling? I know you can't reply but I pray that you're alright. If anything happens to you. I can never forgive myself. I'm sorry for my bad handwriting. It's because I am terribly busy most of the time. But a second doesn't go by when you don't cross my lonely mind. And I'm going to do everything it takes for me to keep my promise.I don't want you to give up everything and cry and be depressed because I'm not there. I do cry and I do get depressed but I can't stand to know that you're a wreck because of me. I want you to be happy and know that I care and love you alot.  Sometimes when I close my eyes I can imagine your beautiful face gazing up at me. Your sparkly eyes and your gorgeous smile that gets me every time. I'm dying without you. Nothing can stop my heart's yearning to see your face. 

With love,

N.J.H

*~*

I held the white piece of paper in my hand. To any other person, this paper would be simply paper with some scribbles. But to me it was something completely different.

The second letter. Those few words from Niall traveled across the world to me. I did cry. 

A lot.

But if I re-read his letters I'd feel a bit better. I slept with his letters  in my hands. It made me happy knowing that Niall had touched and written on the same piece of paper I was holding

My best friends, Rosalie and Tatyana. Who was the only person in this entire universe, besides Niall and I, knew about our relationship.  They saw me falling into pieces everyday.  They asked me to get a grip and get back on with my life, Niall would hate to know that I was crying because of him. Therefore, I should try to be as strong as possible till we see each other again. 

These thoughts danced in my head. I neatly folded his letter and held it close to my heart and lay down. Yet another day wasted in my dark room and tears. 

I can do this.

I can be strong.

I'm going to get back on my feet.

For Niall.