I laid on the bed thinking about my life choices, as I hear Jamie come out of his bathroom in under wear using a towel to dry his hair.
I look at his 6 pack, analyzing his body, he looked so fine, he was looking in his mirror as I walk up to him and hug him from behind, feeling his body.
He chuckles, "what are you doing?" He asked, " showing affection to my beloved boyfriend, can I not do that Mr Flatters?" I ask, he turns to me, "of course you can, but not when I'm only in under wear," he said walking to his closet.
"Why not? Is that not what we did last night?" I said smirking following him.
He stopped and turned to me and started kissing me, I pulled from him, he looked at me confused, "I thought I shouldn't be showing affection to my boyfriend when he's in only underwear?" I asked teasing him.
I walk to the bed and lay down, he looked at me, "go on get dressed" I said, he rolled his eyes and turned to his closet.
"You got anymore joints?" I asked looking in his night stand, "yea under that book," he said as he put on a tank top, "ah" I said as I grabbed it lighting it.
I walked outta the room to the window that leads to the balcony.
And go to sit on the ledge, looking down seeing how far I was smoking the joint.
After a while Jamie comes and sits by me, before I could take another puff he snatches it, "you know you shouldn't smoke this much," he said taking a puff.
"Oh shut up," I said looking at him annoyed, "yea yeah what ever," he said.
"So I'm going out tonight," I said randomly, "with who?" He asked looking at me.
"A friend I made yesterday" I said looking back at him, "really?" He asked, "yes" I said, "that's hard to believe," he said, "how? How is it that hard to believe ive made a friend," I said offended.
"I don't know, I thought you didn't make friends?" He said, I looked at him even more offended.
"Wow, I have have friends," I said hitting his stomach, "oh really who?" He asked, "Sarah, Sophie, Maya, Lexi, Alex, Geo, Monica, and Luis." I said.
"Where are they then?" He asked, "they all live in los angles, I live there to" I said, "really?" He asked.
"Yes I have a beach house there," I said grabbing the joint from him, "your rich?" He asked, "no shit, how do you think I have Brian mays guitar?" I said, "I didn't believe you when you said that," he said.
"Oh screw you, I ain't no liar," I said, "come on, I'm just joking," he said hugging me.
"I know you have friends well some."he said, "oh my god," I said pushing him, "hey be careful, we're on a ledge." He said, laughing.
I try not to smile at his ignorance, when he sat back up straight he went and hugged me.
I smile and hug him back, after a few seconds he pulled and looked down at me, "do you want breakfast?" He asked, "what is it?" I asked, "pasta," he said, "pasta for dinner, do you even have pasta ingredients?" I asked, "yeah of course" he said standing up.
He helped me up and walked back to the window. as we got inside, he went to his kitchen looking through his cabinets, "ahh, here we go, pasta." He said showing pasta noodles and sauce.
I laugh, "you sure you won't burn those?" I ask, " I know how to cook," he said turning around.
"Ok" I said going on my phone, seeing messages from Roxy.
(790) 255-1569
Unknown
Unknown
Hey when we're done going out we should go to my place.
Me
Can we push it to tomorrow, I'm pretty busy tonight
Unknown
Just blow it off
Me
I can't sorry I'm in Brooklyn
...
Typing
Left on read
I look at the messages, feeling guilty for what I was doing to Jamie and when he was right in front of me.
My smile disappears, and I guess Jamie noticed cause I rested on the counter across me looking at me.
"What?" I asked, "why you sad?" He asked moving a piece of hair behind my ear.
"I'm not, just day dreaming" I said softly smiling, "oh yeah? What were you wondering about?" He asked, "about when that pasta is done," I said, "i just started I'm not gonna be done in 5 minutes like Gordon Ramsey," he said looking at me joking.
"Really? I hadn't known," I said walking to couch.
"Plus the water isn't even boiling," he said pointing his hand at the pot of cold water.
I roll my eyes and go on my phone, texting my dad, just checking about him and asking on how my mom is, and she was great, she's ran from the hospital, and found her doing drugs.
So my moms being sent to rehab
As well. Which I was happy she's finally being watched carefully to get her the right way to a healthy life.
I always thought about the positives when something bad happened to my mom, or what she had done to me.
For example when she said I was fat and had to stop eating, "at least she was making sure I was healthy"
Till it got to bad I couldn't think of positives, then I got sent my grandparents farm for 2 summers.
Than got sent back home where my mom was no where to be seen, while I was gone my mom ran off with her boyfriend she cheated on with my dad to Mexico.
That was the last night I saw her until a couple days ago.
As I was thinking about it, I heart Jamie yell, I look over and see fire on the stove, I get up and run over.
"Jamie what'd you do?" I ask, "I don't know I'm not even cooking on that burner, it just set on fire." He said trying to pour water on it, "Jamie you turns that one on not this one," I said turned by the other burner on.
"That's why it's on fire ," I said pouring water on the small fire.
"Gosh Jamie," I said laughing, "I didn't mean for that to happen," he said joining the laughter.
