Jungkook's smile waver from his face as soon as Taehyung left for the University...
Taehyung's silliness and their bickerings almost made him forget the harsh reality nonetheless he was remained and brought back to reality for why he stayed back at home when he saw the fading figure of the younger...
His eyes tear up for the ninth time and he fell on his knees as he placed a shaky hand on his stomach...
Though it was flat like before still his heart was telling him that there was someone,a life... A fetus was growing within him a symbol of their love and his Taehyungie's blood..
He couldn't hold the sob any longer that was stuck in his throat the whole time, now that he was alone he let it out like a river ...
The agony of a mother..
The heart winching sob could even melt a stone yet he himself couldn't let his heart melf for the fetus and shatter Taehyung's life into pieces...
He dedicated his life to Taehyung the moment the younger enter his life...
He can't be the destroyer now of that one person who is living for him who is loving him like none other..
And he knows If he leaves Taehyung for the fetus the man won't be able to live, Kim Taehyung loves him with his all..
The man will die simply..
After all he only get rejection throughout his life.. the moment he open his eyes for the world he get rejected by his parents...
His parents didn't want him and left him for their own happiness and If now he leave Taehyung for the fetus the man won't be able to go through another rejection,the biggest rejection of his life ...
And giving birth to the fetus will only led distress, distraction and distance between them...
He knows Taehyung may accept it for now, he may love his unborn for now but in future things will change surely ...
Taehyung is only twenty-one the moment he would feel that he is getting caged within the family and his child he may not see his child like he should and blame the little life for snatching his freedom at his early twenties
Things change.. Sometimes time and situation force people to change..
And when Taehyung will be in his proper age he may even blame him for everything for destroying his life...
-I-I'm sorry baby.. Mommy is sorry.. Just know that-that mommy wants you right ? mommy wants you so much but my lo-ve w-we can't rui-n dadda's life
Dadd-a don't even know that m-mommy can carry a life..
H-hate me lo-ve but don't hate y-your dadda okay?
It's not dadda's fa-ult.. W-When you meet god wish for dadda
Wish that dadda will become the str-ongest man on earth so that mommy c-can leave him and come to you...
I Love You.. Mommy loves you my-my love
(Jungkook hasty retorted his shaky hand from his stomach..He is getting more weak for the fetus growing inside him
He wipe the tears away so that he could see the vision clearly and stand up...
He needs to do things hurriedly before he fell more weak and attached to the fetus growing inside him and change his mind..
Turning around he marched towards the bedroom to take his cout and some necessary things like money, car key and his phone ...
Jungkook had already call his friend on his way who is a doctor for an appointment but before going there he needs to confirm that he is really expecting ...
He can't just go and say that my heart is telling me that I am pregnant and need an ab*rtion without being hundreds percent sure...
Taking an u-turn Jungkook stopped his car near a convenience store and hurriedly made his way inside...
After searching for a good few minutes he get what he needs and again marched towards the convenience store's washroom to do the test...
All the while his heart was beating at a fast speed..
The nervousness the fear the guilt came back again nonetheless he did everything according to the instructions which was written over the package...
The five minutes which he had to wait for the result was like the longest ride of a hell for him..
He didn't open his eyes for once throughout the process but when the timer on his phone buzzed which was settled prior by him for five minutes, he flinched badly and was forced to open his eyes
Jungkook's lips wobbled at the two lines which was showing on the tester boldly indicating one thing only...
He is indeed pregnant... Pregnant with his Taehyung's child
He wants to kill himself.. Maybe that's what he deserves for all the problem he caused but he knew better...
He knew Kim Taehyung better than any other... A single scratch on him and Kim Taehyung will hurt himself two times more
Minutes pass by making it hour and finally Jungkook came out of the washroom looking like a de*d body only...
His mind was questioning him just one thing,.. how did it even happen? He was on pills and never for once he missed taking them than how?
Nonetheless he couldn't help but blame on him.. Only him... He is the one to be blamed
If only he had told the younger that he can conceive maybe then they would have taken decision together..
Maybe they could have stop the pregnancy from being happened..
Maybe it was him who wasn't careful enough... He was in his own thoughts when he bumped into someone..
Jungkook didn't even care to glance at the newcomer and proceed to take the used tester which was in his hands before and fell at the impact of the bump
But before he could do so the tester was taken by someone else...And Jungkook was about to ask the newcomer to give him back the tester but he was interrupted midway by a loud gasp
And Jungkook was horrified seeing the person who was holding the tester in his hand's...
- Ji-Jimin-shii