My Attractive Bully - Han Jisung

chapter 25

Time flew.

I finally had the courage to talk to Hyunjin about that thing... Well, not really but I need to do it. Break up.
Should I tell him face to face? I have no other chance.

I texted him.
To Hyunjinnie:

hyunjin, can we meet?

sure, when n where

national kim park?

alr, see you

see you
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I was so scared. Never have been so scared of a situation.
Is he gonna hate me after that? I'm so fucking scared. I hope I won't get a panic attack. Please, Hyunjin, don't yell at me. I wouldn't survive this.
I don't want to play this part. But I do.
All for you.

(time skips)

I waited for him at the park.

Suddenly someone tapped my shoulder.
I flinched.

"Oh, Hyunjin."

"Hi, so what do you wanna do?" Hyunjin smiled.

"I wanted to talk with you. It's serious."

"Oh, okay. Go on" his mood changed.

"Promise you won't hate me after that."

"What- I could never hate you"
he laughed "Wait... are you breaking up with me?"

I was looking at him. I don't know what to say or do. He hates me- I'm sure.

"Yume... really?" his smile faded.

I lowered my head. Almost crying.

"I'm sorry, Hyunjin."

"Seriously? O-okay, well..."
Is he angry?

"Are you mad at me? I'm really sorry."

"I'm not mad. I just... Why the fuck are you breaking up with me?? What have I ever done to you?!"
he shouted at me.

I was still looking to the ground.

"Look at me when I'm talking with you, Yume" he held my face.

"P-please, don't touch me."

"Don't touch you? Okay, wow. What the hell is wrong with you? At first you're hurting yourself and now you're breaking up with me just like that?" he looked so disappointed in me.
"Talk to me, Yume, what have I done wrong??"

"I'm sorry" I sobbed.

"Why are you crying now? Oh god, Yume, what is wrong with you?! What the fuck is wrong with you? Why are you being like this?? Do you think a 'sorry' will help?
Be happy I stayed on your side the whole damn time. I should've known you're exactly what I expected" -Hyunjin.

I have no words left. He does really hate me. And It's all my fault. Yea right, why am I this dumb?

"Say something" he said.

I sighed "... What you have ever done to you? Remember, you raped me. And you think I forgot about it or whatever- I didn't. That's a trauma. You hurt me so bad for n-not respecting my privacy and the fact that I said 'no'. I hope you're gonna be happy with y-your next girlfriend. She has luck to have you. I'm really sorry for not being enough for you. I'm sorry for hurting myself. I-I'm sorry for being a bad girlfriend. ...
I'm sorry. For everything, Hyunjin. This all is m-my fault. Tell everyone bad about me, but I loved you. Really"
I almost shouted with tears in my eyes.