This Is Real Love (Jacksgap and Alfie Deyes fanfic)

It's complicated.

I pulled away from Jack and glanced over at Marucs, he shrugged his shoulders and I turned and gave a puzzled look at Zoe, she looked down and patted the chair next to her, Jack then walked over to the drink station to fill up his Coke, I walked back over to Zoe and she whispered into my ear,

"Alfie went back to his apartment, he said he didn't feel very well but just a minute ago he was joking around with Marcus..?" she raised her eyebrows. I grabbed my coat and scarf and kissed Jack goodbye, he had no idea where I was going he watched me run out the door he turned back around and looked at Finn and Maisy, he walked back over to the table with his Coke and slumped into the chair.

The rain was pooring down my face and my hair was drenched, cars drove past splashing me when they drove through puddles, I tried covering my head with my coat still running through the London streets. I felt so bad leaving Jack speechless over why I left him but I had to see what was wrong with Alfie.

I soon arrived at Alfie's apartment, i knocked on his door paitently as I pulled my phone out of my pocket and dialled Alfie's number, he answered and I heard a voice crying over the other end of the phone,

"Alfie?" I questioned down the phone. "It's me Alfie let me in I need to see if your okay" the phone soon hung up and the locks on Alfie's door began to unbolt, I looked up from my phone seeing Alfie in a wreck, he wiped away his tears as I began to walk into his apartment.

"Alfie, please tell me what's wrong, everyone's worried about you, especially me" he walked over to his sofa and I followed him, I started fiddling with my nails and Alfie began to tell me what was wrong,

"Seeing you and Jack together makes me, you know make me want you even more than I did before, I swear if I was going out with you I would have ran out of the restaurant searching the whole of London for you, seriously you deserve better than Jack, like me.." I felt my body shaking I clenched my hands together, I searched his room trying to think of an answer,

"I didn't know you felt like this Alfie, I'm sorry that you feel that way but I'm with Ja-" my words got cut off from Alfie blurting out,

"I love you.." I started shaking again, I held my head in my hands and looked up at Alfie, he moved closer to me on the sofa. He grab held of my hand and pulled me into a kiss, this I was not expecting, I couldn't feel fireworks with him like I did with Jack.

I quickly pulled away shaking my head, "Alfie. Why. I can't do this" I grabbed my bag and ran out his apartment, slamming his door shut. I turned back around at the door and reached out to the door handle and pulled away instantly, the next thing I heard was a punch on one of Alfie's wall, I heard a scream from the otherside of the door and tears streamed down my face.

I ran as fast as I could in the rain, more and more tears rolled down my cheek, I struggled trying to get my apartment key, I unlocked the door searching every room to see if Maisy and Finn were home,

"They must still be at Nandos" I stuttered to myself,

I feel on my bed clutching hold of a picture of me and Jack from the London Eye, tears still flooding out of my eyes. I gradually cried myself to sleep...