|Your Smile| Past Ennchael\Noahchael Love Story|Fnaf|

"Incapable Of Making Alright Descisions"

Uh guys remember when I said I liked south park? Well now I'm pretty much OBSESSED!!! I will obviously keep updating this book but rn I am in my South Park era💀 

And no I'm not gonna make a South Park book cuz I'm scared of some of the fans😰 

WHY'D YOU ONLY EVER CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE HIGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

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"Stop. Just stop. I thought that everything was fine but it's not. I thought I was done with this shit but I'm not. I'm still addicted." 

I didn't know what I was doing. It was a stupid idea anyways to take Noah out just to talk about negativity. Me and him were sitting on the edge of a hill. 

"I'm not going to cry or anything I just want everything to stop. I want to be a different person. I want to fuck my life up so bad that I have no choice but to restart everything."

"Mike—no you don't. You're probably just too drunk now. I knew this was a bad idea. Let's just go home."

"No. We're gonna get this shit over with right here, right now."

He sighed.

"Fine Michael, fine. We'll talk about this when you're drunk."

We went back to sitting on the hill.

"I just don't want to do this anymore. I want to be something else. But i'm not and I guess that's why I drink so much. When I drink I don't remember anything and I love that. Just to forget every single shitty thing you've done in your life and relax." 

"Yeah sure, I guess but it's still bad for your health." 

"Have you ever even drank?"

"No?" 

"You should!"

"No I shouldn't Michael and you know that VERY well."

"Remember when we were 15? When life wasn't so full of shit. All of our old friends?"

"Yeah, very vividly." 

"When you drink it feels exactly like that and the best part is you can go back over and over again. Don't you want to feel that?"

"Yes but who wouldn't?" 

"Exactly, that's why you should drink atleast bit!" 

"You didn't let me finish, then it's pointless. If almost everyone is capable of remembering then why would you want to go back to it?"

"Do I really need to answer that? Just drink a bit, it will be fine!"

....

"Ok Michael, i'll try" 

Then we drank bottle after bottle, crying one second the laughing the next. When we got home we got carried away and had sex while drinking. 

We fainted after but you know what was the worst part.

 I remember every single last bit of it and he doesn't. 

And that was one of the last times I...

Well, we aren't there yet, about 2 months until it happened.

But Noah was right.

Keep what's in the past in the past and just remember.

But I can't help.

I can't help to drink more.

And more.

And more. 

And more.

And more.

And more.

And more.

And more.

And more. 

Till I can't feel my body anymore. 

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Ok I genuinely don't know what the actual fuck I was writing but this is what happens when I quickly write something at 2am😭😭😭