selfish• woosan (book 1)

two: brownie balls

hai so i made an outline so the story isn't messy. so yeah! enjoy this rewrite/structure of chapter 2.

comment please !!!
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As Seonghwa gently lays the drunken San in his bed, the young brunette lets out an ugly and embarrassing cry, scaring Seonghwa who had never seen San cry before. Usually, San suppresses his emotions when around his friends.

"San," Seonghwa holds the crying male in his arms, feeling the pain that San had held in for so long. "It's okay to cry," he assures, making San feel vulnerable and pathetic.

San couldn't believe how much pain he felt upon seeing Wooyoung again, and so soon. He wished he never came to the party, he could've been sleeping peacefully instead of dealing with the emotions he had pinned up for so long at 2 am. Since he saw the divorce papers, he hadn't cried this hard. Wooyoung had such a profound effect on him, and it made him feel sick.

San runs to the bathroom to throw up, and Seonghwa rushes behind him as he vomits. Seonghwa gasps in concern, "Should we go to the hospital?"

"No, I'm fine," San coughs and spits out the metallic taste from his mouth. "Just give me water, please."

Seonghwa frantically gets a bottle of water from the kitchen downstairs, unsure if he should persuade San to go to the hospital. He goes back to the bathroom to see San wiping his mouth and face, and Seonghwa hands him the water. He watches San take something with his water, and Seonghwa feels his eyes on him.

In a soft voice, San sounds pleading as he stares at Seonghwa through the mirror. "Don't tell the others."

Seonghwa frowns. "I won't. If you need anything, I'm here. Don't hide things from me." San nods in response. Seonghwa stares at the younger male expecting him to explain, but san doesn't.

"fine, i'll get going." Seonghwa smiles halfly," i hope to see you again."

"thank you for taking me home. sorry if i caused a scene." san gets up and starts walking seonghwa out towards the door,"I don't know-"

"We all understand. it's been hard for you. just know we're on your side." Seonghwa opens the door and briefly smiles at his friend before leaving. San is always grateful for the friends he has.
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the next day san doesn't understand how he manages to get out of bed, with a hangover, sore eyes, and a stomachache from throwing up and still be at his early shift at time. Jongho his cousin and co-worker came to work late.

"i'm surprised to see you here on time." jongho place his computer on the counter," you've drunk more than me and i have a nasty hangover."

"it's called having my priorities straight." san deadpans, he felt dead inside and desperately just wanted to be in his bed. He really shouldn't had went to mingi birthday party and just did something small for the younger.

Jongho mumbles a whatever, as their other co-worker Felix walks into the computer electronics store with a bright smile. to san he was the definition of happiness to as his face glows, his clean cut outfits that includes neutral bright colors that compliment his skin tone and his impeccable hair.

"Good morning, guys!" Felix greets them cheerfully, making San feel a little better despite his condition.

"Good morning, Felix," San replies weakly.

Jongho rolls his eyes. "You're too happy in the morning, Felix. It's not natural."

Felix laughs. "I just love working here. It's my dream job."

San can't help but feel a pang of jealousy at Felix's enthusiasm. He used to love working at the store too, but lately, everything felt so mundane and pointless.

As they start the day, San tries to focus on his work, but his mind keeps drifting back to the events of the previous night. He can't shake off the feeling of hurt and betrayal that Wooyoung's presence had caused him.

During their lunch break, Felix notices that San is not his usual self. "Are you feeling okay, San?" he asks, looking concerned.

San forces a smile. "I'm fine felix."

Felix nods, understanding. "Oh okay, um i made you these brownies."

San feels a lump forming in his throat, touched by Felix's kindness. "Thank you, Felix. I really appreciate it." Felix winks before going back to his area to work on a customer's laptop.

"Brownies!?" Jongho says behind San causing him to jump. He hate when he creeps up behind him,"Yeah felix made some for me again."

"Dude, i still think he likes you." Jongho nudges at him. San rolls his eyes to think to date again was not in Sans plan anytime soon.

San rolled his eyes. "Yeah, right."

"He only makes you brownies...he likes you," Jongho said in a duh tone. "You should ask him out."

San gave him a sarcastic look before rolling his eyes. "Did you forget that last night, I gave my ex the divorce papers he issued to me? Or are we all collectively going to forget?"

"Now that you mention it, I swear I didn't know he was coming," Jongho put his hand in defense. "Shoot, I didn't even know he was in Korea."

"Whatever, I'm not ready to be in a relationship," San huffed as he did some coding on the laptop. "And I don't think I ever will be."

"Oh, come on, San. It's been three years. You have to move on sometime," Jongho said.

"Shut up," San whispered. He really didn't want to lash out or, worse, ugly cry. "I double dog dare you, so now you have to do it," Jongho said very seriously because he's so childish.

"No," San challenged, which made the younger smile and walk away. "What are you doing?" he watched the other." Jongho." he whispered yelled as a customer walks toward the counter asking for san's help.

Jongho took it upon himself to go up to Felix, prompt his elbow on the smiley freckled boy's desk, and let his head rest on his palm, saying, "Hey, sunshine."

"Hi, Jongho. What's up?" Felix smiled wildly. Jongho wondered if his cheeks ever hurt.

"San is shy and wanted me to tell you that he loves the brownies you made and wanted to know if you are free sometime this week to go on a date," he said at a rapid pace.

"A date?" the male deep voice pitched in a softer tone, Felix looks over to see San helping a lady then back at Jongho. Felix blushes,"Yeah sure."

"great! just text him the deets." Jongho smirks , before walking back towards the counter. San kicks him in his shin and glares," i hate you."

"i love you too." jongho grunts holding his leg.

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