Restarting... Eighteen

three.

Farah's

I've been feeling confused lately, Ano ba talaga kami ni George? Kami pa ba or are we friends? What are we?

"George, Ano ba talaga tayo?"

long awkward silences. I hate this and he knows na i hate long awkward silences. And yet his giving me one. And it's my fault as well for bringing that question, so mag aassume nalang ako na we're friends.

"Farah, I'll answer that later okay?"

"I'll pick you up from now on." He smiled and went inside.

And there goes my heart, He's making it beat again. Hindi ko lubos maisip na we went from being lovey-dovey to friends or maybe not even friends, just casual people having nice little talks about anything. I've decided to have my own little walks and wander in my thoughts.

"hey...?" i saw a familiar guy walking up towards me.

"oh, hey?"

"you probably won't remember me but I'm Jaemin Jang, I'm your classmate in Stanford." he offered his hand and i shook it.

"wait a sec, I'll try to remember who you are." i laughed awkwardly.

"i think this might help you." i looked at him.

"You were confused and you saw me-"

"oh yeah!" i snapped my fingers. Naalala ko na.

it was my first year in Standford and it was lunch, i had no one and no friends to talk to or sit with... Until i saw Jaemin with some other asian people around him. I walked up to their table and said hi. I clearly don't know this guy and i don't know why i decided to walk up to them but... that happened.

"you even said "finally! i hope we can be friends!" that's so funny." We laughed.

"I know, that was embarrassing actually. I don't know why i did that."

"you know what, let's go chat for a little bit." pang anyaya ko sa kaniya. We went back to the Geo's place and sat there. Geo was shocked to see me, but his eyes focused on Jaemin.

"What can i get you two?"

"Geo, can Jaemin see the menu?" He nodded.

"here." he was trying his best to smile, i know him. Nagseselos ba siya...?

I sent Jaemin off. May lalakarin pa daw siyang papers para mafully set yung living niya here sa Philippines. I decided na lapitan na ulit si Geo.

"Geo...?"

"hm?" sumagot siya pero nakatalikod. Hindi niya naman to ginagawa ito dati...

"Geo, nagseselos ka ba?" Everything stopped. Yung pag pupunas niya ng table ay tumigil din. Huminga siya ng malalim.

"Hindi."

"Weh kila-"

"Farah." his tone became serious.

"Oo, nagseselos ako pero anong magagawa ko?!" Tears fell from his eyes.

"Yung Jaemin nayan, mayaman! Kayang ibigay sayo lahat."

"Saka matagal na tayong wala diba? Nagseselos ako pero wala naman akong karapatan kasi walang tayo, nagkaroon pero hindi na tayo ngayon."

"Geo..."

"Farah, huwag mo akong alalahanin. Alam kong mahal mo si Jaemin, Go takbuhin mo na. Alam ko namang hindi talaga ako ang endgame mo."

"Geo!" Naiinis na ako sa kaniya.

"Naiinis ka kasi totoo? Habulin mo na Farah."

Jusko lord.. Bigyan ninyo ako ng pasensya, yung mahaba haba please. Ang kulit nga sinabi. Arghh kainis

"Geo, kung alam mo lang..."