SECRET ~ SEUNGMIN

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Blink.. blink..  blink..

Seungmin could feel his consciousness come back. He could feel the coldness of the stiff bed crawling up from his toe up to his head, making him shiver. He winced as he felt the pain in his stomach, he could only keep telling to himself that it'll all go away in a few days.

As he was trying to comfort himself, he could see from the corner of his eyes he saw a doctor come in. The doctor had long black hair and his body fairly balanced. Not too much muscle, not too skinny. He was handsome, Seungmin will admit that, and then he began to speak "Seungmin, I know about your secret" panic began to sink into his skin. Seungmin didn't want that to be brought up at all. He wanted to punch the doctor for just bringing it up like that, like it isn't a sensitive topic to him.

"I know your job, so I've decided to not tell anyone." In his mind, Seungmin sighed out of relief. He was thankful to the doctor for not telling anyone, yet he still wanted to punch him for some reason. Maybe it was because he was so handsome. "So.. none of the members know about it right?" Seungmin worriedly asked "No, but they do know about your new Illness," the hell? "What did you just say?" Seungmin was flabbergasted at the brought up of a new illness.

"You have an illness that will kill you from the inside." What? What.. what did he just say?

Seungmin was too shocked to even speak. "They only know that you have an illness. They don't know the side effects of it. And to give you a heads up, you only have 4 years left." Oh. Seungmin couldn't speak, it felt like there was knot. His eyes were watering, and he couldn't breathe. He was drowning.

"I'm sorry for your situation." Of course. Why would anyone not be sorry? His worst dream came true 2 days ago, and now he just realized he had some illness that'll make him die in 4 years? It'll be 2027, and his disbandment is 2030. He just hopes his members would be able to move on. Mot be that depressed because of his passing.

He doesn't distribute that much to the group anyway, right? That broke something in Seungmin.

Seungmin was crying, but he really didn't feel anything. He felt nothingness slowly stir in him. He still had to process the situation, otherwise, he was just there. Existing anywhere.

All Seungmin could do is sigh. "Ah, well.. thank you for informing me." The doctor nodded then went out the room. Suddenly, all the members came in.

"Seungmin! Are you okay? I'm sorry, I was too harsh on you!" Minho cried. Seungmin quickly comforted Minho and hugged him. Saying it was okay. But then he noticed something.. sadness began to spread all over his body. His group cared about him. Wouldn't they be sad to see him go? Seungmin started sobbing in Minho's arms. Noticing that the rest of the members started crying too.

He felt worthless for doing this to them. Even though it wasn't even his fault. Was it something he ate? He didn't know. He just wanted to enjoy the rest of his time with his members and family.

Maybe he won't be a coward to them and stop hiding his secrets anymore. But for now, all he could do was cry, cry, and cry in the comfort of his members arms till he was better.. till he could dance again.