Plastic Taste (GxG) (complete)

Chapter Twenty One - Forever

- Evelyn's Pov -

I've never wanted, no, needed, someone so much in my life.

I don't care if it's pain, heartache, shit pure fucking devastation that I'm left with. As long as it's her giving it to me, I want it, every last fucking drop.

She's currently asleep with her head resting on my chest, even as sick as she is, she's still the most beautiful thing I've ever layed eyes on.

I brush the hair out of her face and place a soft kiss on her forehead. I never want to let go of this moment, because something tells me it could very well be our last...

I don't know what's going to happen in the next twenty four hours, but I do know that she is the only person I have, and ever will love like this.

That might be stupid of me, but it's the truth.

I slide my arm out from underneath her and get up slowly, trying not to wake her.

As I make my way from her room I find Spencer in her office.

"Hey." I say exhausted already.

"Hey." Her tone doesn't seem happy, neither does the way she's looking at me right now.

"Look, I know what you tired to do with May. Pushing back her transplant and everything, it wasn't fucking cool, and if I didn't catch it she could be in a very dangerous position right now." I say.

"But all I care about is that she survives this surgery, so please, just be her doctor. If it's me you hate then after this I'll quit, I don't care what happens to me just make sure she's okay." I don't know if I'm begging or just so desperate it sounds like I am.

Either way I don't have the energy to fight with her right now, I just need to make sure she makes sure May is okay.

She observes me for a moment before taking a big sigh.

"You really love her don't you." She says.

"Yes, with all my heart Spencer."

"Okay, I'm done. I'll stop, and after this surgery I'll transfer back to Italy. I'm... I'm sorry for how I've been towards you. It's not okay."

For the first time since Spencer has come back into my life she seems genuine. A comforting feeling fills my chest.

"Thank you Spencer, and I'm sorry too. For everything." With that I leave her office.

I hope she means what she said. I really do...

Dr. Heart emailed me to go see him in his office so that's where I head next.

God I hope he doesn't fire me...

"You wanted to see me?" I say as I enter his office.

"Yes." He looks as exhausted as I feel.

"Look sir I'm sorry-"

"No, don't. I'm the one who is sorry." He says.

"I've been so stuck in my ways since my wife died that I didn't realize how I was affecting my children. I drove one away and was suffocating the other. I'm ashamed of my actions and want to change, I don't want my daughter to die thinking I don't love her for who she is." He explains.

"Sir, all do respect, shouldn't you be telling her this?"

"Yes, and I will. I just wanted to apologize to you. I have a lot to work through but I support you and my daughter. Now you know this means you can't be her doctor, like ever right?" He says.

"Yes sir, I know."

"Okay, go get ready for her surgery. The transplant should be here in a few hours so we need to be ready whenever it gets here."

I nod before leaving his room. That went better than I expected it to...

As  I enter the changing room Sebastian sees me and instantly gives me a warm hug. Normally I'd push him away and pretend nothings wrong but right now, I need this.

"I'm sorry." He says.

"Me too." Sebastian may be a pain in my ass half the time, but he's become like a little brother to me.

Sara walks in and Sebastian gives her the biggest side eye ever, there's so much hurt in his expression...

Maybe something did happen between Sara and Spencer.

After she leaves I put my hand on his shoulder trying to comfort him.

"What happened between you two?" I ask.

"She... she told me last night that she cheated on me. With Dr. Larson." He looks away with both anger and sadness.

I knew Sara couldn't be trusted but this? He didn't deserve this...

"I'm Sorry Sebastian, you deserve so much better than that."

"I know, we're over. For good." He says.

I squeeze his shoulder before letting go and changing into my scrubs.

After filling out some paperwork and waiting for the transplant it's finally time for May's surgery to take place.

I take a deep breath before walking into the OR room where May is unconscious surrounded by nurses and the other doctors.

My eyes fight the tears swelling at the surface as I look at May.

Before I know it, we start the transplant and begin the surgery that could possibly determine the rest of her life.

Both further more, the rest of my life...

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Twelve hours later I step out of the operating room and take a long deep breath.

We successfully completed the transplant, but due to the fact that we don't know how May is going to respond to the heart I can't seem to be relieved yet.

I make my way down the hall to the waiting room where James and Dr. Heart are seated.

They immediately just up from their seats and walk towards me.

"Well? How is she?" James says.

"She's good, for now. We still have a few hours to see how she will respond to the heart, but she is currently being transported back to her room if you want to wait with her." I explain.

Dr. Heart puts his hand on James's back in a comforting manner and they follow me to her room.

I guess they made up?

When we enter my eyes immediately fall on May who has all kinds of chords and wires running in and out of her.

They walk to her side and hold her hand. Tears form in both of their eyes as they look down at her.

"I'm so sorry May." Dr. Heart says.

He looks so scared, scared that she'll die never knowing how he truly feels. He may be hard on her, and definitely didn't go about things how she deserved. But he loves her, and I can see the change already taking place in him.

He turns to look at me as he wipes his tears.

"You look exhausted Grey. Go home, I'll call you if she wakes up." He says.

"All due respect sir, I'm not leaving her side." My voice is both firm and shaky revealing all the emotions flooding through me.

He just nods his head with a slight smile before sitting down. James takes the seat next to him and they just wait in silence.

My feet slowly carry me closer to May, stopping just before her. I run my finger across her face pulling the loose hair away and staring at her.

I hope she wakes up. I need her to. She is my everything, and throughout these past few months I've grow to love her so much, that I don't know if I can go on without her in my life.

"Please wake up May."

- To Be Continued -

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