Grey and Ocean's Fate | JenLisa

Chapter 20

At first, I didn't feel anything.

The streets were quiet, at rest without noise while my head was sounding alarms of all kind. The warmth of her lips covered mine, and all of a sudden, I realized that not only had I caught her off guard, but now she was kissing me back.

Without warning, something switched - something that I couldn't control ignited and ran over my skin like a hot fire, chasing a line of endless gasoline. It felt like there were clouds beneath my feet, like there were flowers growing inside my chest and blooming at the sight of spring.

Her bruised hands traveled to my cheek, kissing me back, feeling the skin in a way I had never been touched before. Everything about her warmth, delved and coated with the taste of alcohol almost made me want to pull away, but I couldn't. She obliterated every one of my thought and all of the warnings and red flags I had received were thrown to the curb, enlightened by her hold on me.

When she eventually withdrew from me - surprisingly hesitant - I looked in her eyes and saw the swirled emotions of anger, confusion, want and need.

However, as I searched further into the grey, I was immediately reminded of the torment and rudeness she had put me through. The way she made me cry, and feel worthless. All of it began to storm over my head, making me realize what I had just done.

"Jennie-" Lisa began to speak. Her voice low and gentle as if she battled with herself.

"This..." I start. "This never happened." I shook my head, eyes wide, trying to convince not only her but also myself of what I had just said.

I didn't know what this kiss meant and suddenly I was urging with questions.

Was it really a mistake? Did it mean anything? Would this change things between us? Did she feel something like I did?

Her eyebrows instantly creased and the line between them folded. "What?"

"I'm- I'm sorry. I never should have kissed you. I didn't know what I was doing... I just-" I began to ramble, making up some kind of acceptable excuse. "You can't tell anyone, please."

Lisa scoffed, and crossed her strong arms against her chest creating a smug look on her face.

She leaned in, breath hot against my pink cheeks. "Who said it was worth telling?" She mocked me in a whisper.

I tilted my head up to meet her height. "Just... promise me, okay?"

"Fine, whatever." With a huff, she turned on her heel and walked off.

"Where are you going?" I shot after her.

"Why do you care?" She said back, remaining calm while she reached the door of her car.

"You're drunk. You- you can't drive,"

Lisa paused and looked at me, stretching her hands out in the air, sarcastically.

"Does it look like I give a damn?" She drops her hands to her sides, flopping against her jeans.

"Well, I can't just let you drive drunk, Lisa."

She chuckles to herself and opens the door, not yet getting in. "I wasn't aware we were pretending to care about each other." My lips part away. "Look, Jennie, it was just a stupid kiss. Don't get all sentimental, okay? It didn't mean anything."

I wasn't aware of the reason why, but suddenly Lisa saying the kiss meant nothing, made my stomach twist into knots. I cleared my throat and looked away to the ground to hide the feeling.

"No, I get it. I just..." I met her eyes again. "I can call Miyeon or Sehun, they could come and pick you up."

"No." She ran a single hand through her black hair, strands falling around her perfectly framed face before she pushed them out of the way with annoyance. "You won't let this go, will you?"