Chapter 6 - Meltdown

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by Avexander

by Avexander

CW: SELF DEPRECATING THOUGHTS, AUTISTIC MELTDOWN (idk if that is a cw/Tw but just incase), SELF HARM, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS

Karl's POV

I can't believe I am such a disappointment, I'm so pathetic, I'm sitting here crying on the floor over what getting yelled at. Pussy shit. As if my hand was moving on its own it began hitting against my head. Slowly my hand began hitting against my skull harder and faster.

I'm so pathetic I can't even control my own actions.

Tears were rolling down my face quickly and then dropping onto the floor. I probably look so ugly right now, what do I mean, I always do. Alex, Nick and George probably all hate me, they just tolerated me, I'll leave them alone from now on I guess.

While all these thoughts were running through my head I was still hitting and punching my own body and I don't even know why I do it.

And my sobs, my sobs were getting louder and louder, and the louder it got, the more annoying my whines sound.

Foolish was right, I'm not going to be an alpha, I'm not strong enough, or skilled enough, or good enough, I'll be even more of an outcast in my own family.

Dream POV

When Karl ran off I was concerned about him, about what was wrong, but I decided to give him some space for a minute before I go check on him. But that was all thrown out the window when I heard

thud, Thud, THUD

I started getting up when

thud, thud, Thud, THUD, Thud, THUD

It kept getting louder and quicker so I ran up to his room, as I was outside his door I heard his cries I opened the door to see Karl having a full on melt down.

His face was red and tear stained his fist was pointing upwards towards his roof and slamming full throttle against his head. His hand was red and purple, presumably from hitting him self, his eyes were bloodshot from the crying.

I know from Karl's previous meltdowns that I should stay distanced from him, not touch him, and if he tells me to be quiet, then be quiet.

"Hey Karl, can you tell me what's upsetting you?" I say in a calming, quiet voice. In response he shook his head aggressively with a frustrated expression appearing on his face. "Okay, do you want me to stop talking?" I asked softly, he nodded slightly, tears still streaming down his face. I hate seeing my brother like this, he's to sweet for this.

Slowly I saw him crawl towards me until he is sat next to me and put his head on my chest and I reach over to his sound proof headphones and put them over his ears, I picked him up, it always makes me feel guilty because I know he doesn't like it, he starts kicking his legs and slamming his hands against my chest and arms as his sobs got louder, I ignored it and just laid him down putting his weighted blanket over him, I sat next to him watching and waiting for him to fall asleep which sure enough he did, well after about thirty minutes

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Sorry it's a shorter chapter, I couldn't think of anything else to do to fluff it up

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