Unconditional Feelings (Heesun)

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Heeseung had eventually explained his true feelings and how he managed to deal with them. The day he skipped with Jake, his head was only filled with the reminiscing memories of the boy. He knew he did something wrong, but he wasn't sure about it.

"Hyung, you seem to be out of these days. You good?" Jake asked, feeling concerned for the older. "Jaeyun-ah, can I..." He paused to release a nervous sigh, then continued, "Can I ask you something? It's kinda been bothering me lately.."

Jake was caught off-guard. He had never seen Heeseung seem so serious, yet so nervous about something. "Sure." Jake said, his brain shifting complete focus on the boy sitting beside him.  "I—I think I like someone... but I don't know if it's just attraction..."

"I feel so conflicted right now because I'm not sure whether or not the way I feel is just infatuation or actual feelings with deep meaning behind them—oh my god! What the fuck am I saying.." heeseung furrowed his brows in frustration, rubbing his face in anger. "That was cringey."

Jake stared in disbelief, and he unintentionally started laughing. "You think this is funny?!" Heeseung raised his voice, scowling at the younger. "No, it's not funny. It's just that you look so cute right now.." Jake continued laughing, smacking the older's shoulder. Heeseung rolled his eyes in annoyance but feeling giddy inside. Jake is just like his older brother; a brother he truly wished he had, but was delayed.

"Hyung." Jake called out. Heeseung glanced over, humming in response. "Are you always thinking about him?"

Heeseung explored his brain, pondering over the thought. In the end, he nodded. "I do. I tend to think about him all day long without realizing it." He paused, his eyes suddenly widened. "Wait—how'd you know it's a 'he'?!"

Jake snickered, placing a hand on his shoulder, "hyung, I've known you for years. It's Sunoo, isn't it?"

Heeseung's heart beat fastened. He was glad the younger had caught on because he would never admit the person's identity. Heeseung sighed and slightly nodded while blushing.

Jake displayed a sad smile on his face but covered himself despair with his cheery attitude. "I've seen you peeking at him. You're always talking about him, and I'm pretty sure everyone knows that you like him. If it's just infatuation or simply attraction, you wouldn't overthink it."

Heeseung leaned on the bench and smiled. "But how do I know if he likes me back or not?"

"Confess." Jake replied. Heeseunf bolted up, confused. "Do you think confessing is easy?! Especially coming from someone like me—hell nah!" Heeseung threw his arms in the air, rolling his eyes.

"It's not easy, coming from experience—but if you confess, it's better. I'm telling the truth." Jake sounded sad, and heeseung didn't manage to ignore that. "You like someone?" Heeseung asked. Jake stayed frozen for a few seconds, then responded back, " I did. But I guess I can't anymore... it's fine,
though."

Heeseung felt his heart melt at his best friend beside him. It seemed like he was also having a love crisis admist everything. "Heu! This is about you, not me. I'm over it, don't worry."

Heeseunf smiled, ruffling the yiungers hair gently. "Okay, whatever you say, Romeo." Both latter's laughed, chatting and advising one another.

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"Jake has always been caring. He has taken care of me ever since Riki first introduced me." Sunoo chuckled. Both males sat in silence for a few seconds, enjoying the warmth.

"Sunoo, can I get to know you better? We can restart everything—forget my emo phase, and we can try everything over." His eyes shone like the constellations, pulling sunoo in like a daze. "I don't think i can ever forget your emo, bully phase, but sure. Let's restart." Sunoo grinned, blushing. He leaned near Heeseungs face to give him a soft peck. Heesung felt more than happy right now; he had always wanted this, and now it felt as if his sorrows had faded away.

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"You're dating Sunoo?!" Jungwon screamed on the other line of the phone, Jay peeking beside him, flabbergasted. "You're not lying right now? What the fuck?!" Jungwons cat eyes widened, looking as if they are about to pop out of their sockets.

"I am. But nobody other than Jake, you, Jay—maybe Sunghoon and Ni-ki know abiht it."

"Since when did yiu start dating him?" Jay asked while approaching Jungwon laying on his belly on top of his bed. "Since last week. We've been out, going to dates, getting to know each other—honestly more like, embarrassing the shit out of myself in front of him..." He sighed, remembering the past days they spent together.

"Why? What did you do now?" Jungwon asked. "Uhh, so like the day before, I was supposed to help Sunoo clean up the drink he spilled on the table—but ended up spilling the entire drink, along with the soup on his clothes. I wanted to cry right then and there because I have no experience whatsoever," He sighed, dropping his head. "But Sunoo, instead of getting mad, he stayed calm and laughed at my clumsiness. He called me cute! I didn't know what to do, but I blushed like a fool!" He continued.

"Sunoo has been so over the top these days, and sometimes he makes me feel all giddy and stuff–I don't know what to do..." heeseung chuckled, finally glancing up at the phone screen. He saw jungwons mouth hanging and Jay sitting beside him, mouth left agape and eyes staring into Heeseungs soul. The FBI watching was probably intimidated and confused on what the actual fuck is going on.

"Jay hyung, is this actually Heeseung?" Jungwon faced Jay, who was still staring at the phone screen. "I guess so..." He replied, shrugging.

"Why the fuck are you both acting like this? Y'all are acting as if I am a robot, and I'm like malfunctioning or whatever."

"I mean, you ain't a robot, but you sure do act like one, so it's pretty reasonable. But anyways, that's not the point. You are in love. Do not go back to your emo, bully, narcissistic Era ever again; it's not cool, trust me." Jay replied, standing up and walking out of the camera frame.

Heeseung could only sigh and wonder the reason behind their friendship. They were all goofy asses, and that's how they met each other.

Meanwhile...

Riki stared into the olders eyes, he felt as if he he was being drifted inside of them. Sunghoon's gaze lingered on Riki's lips as he felt the need to connect his.

"Hyung, can I kiss you?"