A Voiceless Lioness (Peaky Blinders)

My home

(Tommy's P.O.V.)
I sat down in the now empty Lioness. I couldn't feel any emotion anymore. When I realized Leo was gone and I had no clue where she would be. Everything had turned dark, suddenly I was completely lost. Even with my brothers and Alfie around me I felt completely lost. But most of all, I felt completely alone. It was like I had lost my sense of purpose. And my mind just kept asking, what now? What do I do now? Where do I go? Who do I go with? I couldn't imagine a world without Leo. She is my life partner, my best friend but most of all she was my home. I just looked ahead of me without any proper meaning. Completely drained from any emotions. Alfie walked up to me and I looked up to meet his gaze, with a numbing look.

He sat down in front of me. "they often say women cannot keep a secret" he began, "But Leo guards her secrets like a fierce Lioness. She has hundreds of secrets in her soul which she hides from even herself. And that makes it hard for us men, when all we want is to desperatly help her out. But if there is one thing that I am certain of, is that she can handle herself. And she will find a way home or she will make one" he continues. Then his posture changes slightly "but we won't just wait for her. We will put every single man on the line to find that bastard"

Meanwhile

(Leona's P.O.V.)
My body jolted upward at a sudden motion. I tried looking at my surroundings, but it was overly dark. I had no sight of anything, just complete darkness. I must have been blind folded by the fucking bastards. Another sudden awkward movr made me realize that I was in a car. An uncomfy car for a matter of fact. I groaned when my body slammed into the side. I had no way of balancing myself because my wrists had also been tied. During the journey, I began to try and remember every turn we took and every sound. Two lefts, then one right and a very long straight. Put all those turns in reverse and I could sort of find my way home if I escape. To my left I could hear the sound of water running. Like a stream flowing through a country side, or a canal through a town. Maybe even a watermill? Eventually the car halted after taking a sharp right. My ears picked up the sound of the car doors opening. Soon a rough hand pulled on my upper arm. Forcing me out of the car. Without eyesight, I stumbled forward as I felt a shove into my back. A pair of arms wrapped around me, to prevent me from falling face first to the ground. My nose picked up a familiar scent of Mark's favorite fragrance. In my opinion it smelled like molting leather. Immediatly my nose scrunched up in distaste. It wasn't even close to Tommy's favorite fragrance. He often wore the Tobacco Oud intense. Which unleashed a fiery force ignited by amplified concentrations of tobacco leaf and rare oud. I managed to get away from Mark's grip but immediatly got stuck in the other two men their grip. I heard the crunching of pebbles underneatha pair of shoes, stalk towards me. Suddenly my eyes sight came back, after the potatoe sack was pulled from my head. I blinked my eyes, adjusting to the sudden light. Before moving my eyes up to mee Mark's with a death glare. "What's the matter, Leo?" Mark questioned me, "don't feel like signing?". I continued to glare at him and stayed silent. "Oh wait. You can't because" he motioned to my tied wrists, "so I guess you're going to talk" he commented leaning against my ear. "What do you want from me, Mark" I signed at him. My hands may be bound, but they where infront of me, so I could still sign. He out his finger to his lip indicating for me to stop signing. Before he nodded to the men beside me to let me go. "Let's go for a walk" Mark said and pulled on my arm. I tried to pull away from his grip. "What? Still don't want to sign or even talk?" He questioned grabbing a hold of my cheek to hold me still. "Oh my love" he coed as he looked down into my eyes, "you're not having flashback of me, are you?". He began to push me forward, to start walking. "You're in your bed at night. Waking up covered in sweat, as you think that I am the room with a gun to your head" he coldly said and I felt a cold cilinder being pressed in between my shoulder blades. I roll my eyes and turn to face him "don't flatter yourself" I angrily sign. Only recieving a dark chuckle "nothing to be ashamed of, Leo, if you do think of me. After all, I changed your life" he began to pull me with him agian. Into the old barn that stood lonely in the field. "I will forever appear in your mind. You could be getting oug of your car. Or opening a door. Fuck, you might be dancing with your fiance. But still you think of me". I pull myself from his grip "you have no effect on me anymore. Everything you just said, that's in your head". He hummed darkly as he grabbed a hold of me again and pushed his gun against my head "so now dreams about me, huh?" He questioned with a knowing smirk. He could tell that I was lying. Yes, he was on my mind a lot. I couldn't escape him, no matter how badly I wanted to. I had no way of hiding from the nightmares that plagued my mind. And all I wanted was to sleep. Dying would be nice, wouldn't it? After all, in death I won't be reminded. I just want something that would get rid of this, these thoughts, whispers in my mind. I often question if Mark also raped my mind too. But then along came Tommy, who unknowingly began to erase Mark from my mind. He was my happy place. He never failed to make smile, laugh or blush like a child. His sweet way of calling me 'my darling'. He was the sun, the moon and the stars above. The rainbow in the air. Tommy was my home. "You're sick, Mark" I signed, "sick and obsessed". Mark grabbed a tight hold onto my cheeks and pushed the gun further into my scalp and bashed me against the wall of the barn. "Me? Obsessed? Oh no, my love" he laughed sinister, "I just want to keep what is fucking mine". He leaned closer to my face "and I will kill every bastard in Birmingham and London, to keep it that way".

Published: 30th of May 2023

Good lord. After 3 days of getting errors and the app quiting on me every 5 minutes. I finally got this chapter published. Now to delete all the screenshots I took because I feared of loosing my progress.