A Voiceless Lioness (Peaky Blinders)

Russian Roulette

(Tommy's P.O.V.)
I gasped loudly for air and then frantically looked around me. Instinctively, my hand reached to the left side of the bed. But a shaking breath escaped my lips as I felt the cold and emptiness of the left side, Leona's side of the bed. My mind paid a cruel trick. It had displayed a wonderfull dream. Replaying those moments when she laughed so loud that she would let out a little snort after a few moments. Then her cheeks would light up red in embarresement. The memory of Leo sitting in the grass, her eyes closed, face relaxed and fully at peace as she listened to the Blue Birds. I would listen to her when she would tell me stories about the little birds. But then that wonderfull dream, which made it seem that I had not list her, changed into a nightmare. Mark Ryder had her tightly, forcing himself on Leo. She screamed for me, but no sound came from her lips. I was just a few metres away from her, but my body didn't move, I tried so hard. But it seemed like there was an invisible force keeping me in place. Then Mark pulled a gun and pushed it against Leo's head. When the trigger got pulled I woke up, covered in sweat, frantically searching for Leo. But the realisation would kick in just a second later and pain shoots through my heart. I hear a soft whine and I turn my head forward, to look at Koda who now carefully came to lay down by my side. A bandage wrapped around her side. Thankfully both the bullet and stab wound had not hit organs or anything else. The vet said that Koda was a lucky dog. Koda laid her head in my lap. She was doing the same to me that she would normally do for Leo when she was having a panic attack. I lifted my hand and scratched behind Koda's ear. "We'll find her, Koda. I'll make sure of it". I sat in mine and Leo's bed for a moment, in the complete dark, then suddenly the telephone rang. At first my reaction was, who calls at this time in the night. But then my mind gave me some options. I quickly got out my bed but soon stopped walking away. Turning around to help Koda get down aswell. I did not want her to hurt herself more or rip the stitches out as she wanted to follow me from the bed. As soo  as she was on the ground she followed me as I went over to the telephone to answer it.

The person on the line didn't waste anytime and got straight to the point. "We've got one of them", it was Alfie. I had left my house so quick after hearing Alfie tell me that they found one of the men who had taken Leo, I didn't even hang up the phone.

Some time later

Both me and Alfie looked at the man who was tied to a chair. Arthur, John, Ishmael and Ollie where here aswell. Alfie motioned for me to go ahead. I walked up to the man, who began to pray. I leaned forward "I will keep you alive untill the both of us hear the blue birds sing outside" I said starting my threat. "Then I'll deliver your final cut". I stood back up straight and extended a hand out at John who had walked up to us holding out a case with knifes and other stuff. I had grabbed a knife."now, I'm going have to choose carefully which part of you I cut away first" I slowly spoke with venom lingering in my tone. The man did not seem to listen to me. "Open your eyes" I ordered. No reaction from the praying man "open your eyes or I wil cut away your eyelids!" I said, screaming the last part. I was now fully in tbe man's face "now look at me. Look at me" I whispered at him, "this will be your end". "It was your tongue that agreed to take my Fiance to Mark Ryder. I'll take your tongue first. Then I'll take your ears. Then I take your fingers. Then your fucking toes. See I would take your balls first but you would drain to fast like you fuckers always do!". I dug my fingers in his cheeks and to open the man's mouth "no, tongue first". Muffled groans filled the room. "But if I take your tongue. You won't be able to explain and I want you to fucking explain" I growled at him with heavy breathes. "I want you to fucking tell me where she is!". No responce. I walked away from him to get my control back. I was shaking from the pain of the loss of the love of my life. "Come on, Tommy" I sighed trying to give myself some more strenght and squatted down, hanging my head low. I looked back up "I forget who I am. I forget who I am" I said and turned back around on my heels. "I'm a Blinder-