Cruel New World

Ch 5 -- The Past

January 13, 3027

I dreamt of what I occurred in my past life. My past life was hectic in some time. I lived in a fake family. I couldn't admit the truth regarding that, at that time, because I was treated as a crazy person, too many times. While I live a fake family, I had been treated as a crazy person, too many times. 

I remembered. 

Those times were too rough.

At that time, I dreamt of a Brave N*********. I thought it was the resolution to all the problems that happened at that time. Eventually, Brave N********* did come. When it did, I wasn't that shocked like the rest of Nonbelieveists. 

I lived in a lie, back then. It was too rough. I was treated as a crazy person at that time. 

There was a fake mom who was actually my nurse, at that time. She kept insisting to do the family craze. At that time, I was somewhat mentally ill. I lived in a mental hospital disguised as regular places, like a house, a school, a store, and more. I lived in a mental hospital disguised as a house. My nurse kept lying to me that she was my mom. 

There was a day when I found out that she was not my mom. I remembered what happened during my childhood at that time. I remembered what some Believeiests talked about me at that time. They said that I will have to transfer to another mental hospital oversees from my home country, at that time, and then live with a fake mom, who was my new nurse. 

At that time, even though I was mentally ill, I wouldn't say that I was crazy. 

The fake mom, so many times, kept wanting that I was crazy. She, sometimes, intentionally accusing me as a crazy person. It was actually some men who accused me as a crazy person, first. The first man who did that was my adoptee father. He was the one who accused me as a crazy person, first. That's why he said that I had to be transferred to another mental hospital oversees, because that mental hospital was better at treating me. 

He was gone in my life from my perspective. My father did not appear to me. He didn't help me. He kept letting the fake family continue. 

I was so stressed out, back then. But, my father didn't care. He just let the fake family continue. 

There was one man who helped me get through my hardships. His name was Aklieph. He was the only one who really cared about me. He told me that he would always be there for me no matter what. I remembered in my dream. 

One day, he appeared in my dream. That dream I had in my past life was when I was 18 years old, at that time. 

"Hello." That was his voice.

"Hello." I greeted back.

"Is your name Somera?" He asked.

"Yes." I answered him.

"Hello, Somera. My name is Aklieph. Nice to meet you." He introduced himself.

"Oh, hello Aklieph. Nice to meet you, as well." I told him.

"What troubles you today?" He asked me.

"I have to live in a lie and my father neglected me." I answered him.

"Oh, so sorry to hear that." He said to me.

"Wow, that was the first time any man said to me. You aren't like the other men." I said.

"Really? Was I the only one?" He asked.

"Yes, you were the only man." I answered.

"Oh, Somera. You must of had such rough times. I am so sorry to hear that. Just to let you know, I am always there for you." He told me.

I cried out of joy,

"Oh, thank you so much!"

"Your welcome. But no need to cry." He said.

"It's because I always felt so numb as I was internally running away from my problems in my life. But when you said that I woke up from the numbness. I always thought that I had to endure everything, myself." I explained.

"Oh, no need to do that. Don't try to endure everything yourself. You shouldn't do that. I will help you." He said.

"Oh, okay. Thank you." I said.

"Your welcome." He said.

Then, I woke up from that dream all the sudden. It was weird. When I woke up, at that time, it was 2 am in the morning. 

I couldn't wait to go back to sleep to meet Aklieph, again.

I went back to sleep.

I met Aklieph, again.

"Hello, Somera. Nice to meet you again." Aklieph greeted me.

"Hello, Aklieph. I am so glad to see you again. I woke up in middle of my sleep. But I am so glad that I got to sleep again so that I could see you again." I greeted him back.

"Oh, you were exited to meet me in your dream?" He asked.

"Yes, very much." I told him.

He smiled,

"Okay. I am very glad."

"Really? Why?" I asked.

"Because I was glad to see you again, as well. I couldn't wait to meet you again. I feel that we can only meet in our dreams." He told me.

"Oh, only in our dreams?" I asked.

"Yes, that would be all." He said.

"Can we meet in real life?" I asked.

"Oh, I don't know. But I thank meeting you in our dreams. That, alone, is so precious to me." He said.

From then, I felt something I never felt before.

"I feel something. I don't know what it is." I said.

"How do you feel?" He asked.

"I feel like my heart is beating very fast, but I am not ill." I said.

"What do you think that is?" He asked.

"I remember that when someone is in love, one feels that way." I said.

"Then, could it be love?" He asked.

"I don't know. But I feel very tensely thinking that it could be love." I said.

"Then, maybe it is love." He said.

"No, I cannot love. I shouldn't. I said that I hate love because it made me feel weak. I don't want to be vulnerable. I shouldn't love." I said.

"No, it's fine. You can love. You should love. It's okay that you said that. At that time, you didn't know." He said.

"No! I cannot! I hated love because it made me seem like it wrongly defined me to some individuals! How could I love when I felt that way towards love!" I said.

"No! You need think elsewise! You can love, Somera! It's okay. I won't tell anyone." He said.

"Really? You won't?" I asked.

"Yes, I won't. I promise." He said.

"But, what if I'm labeled a hypocrite because of what I thought and said about love?" I asked.

"It's okay. Because at the time when thought and said that, you didn't know." He said.

"Okay. I trust you, Aklieph." I entrusted him.

"Good. Glad that you trust me. I won't break my promise, I swear." He told me.

"Okay, thank you." I said.

"Your welcome." He said.