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🌧️Scars🌧️ || Katsuki Bakugo

TW : SELFHARM TOPICS

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You laughed at Mina's jokes, even though you wanted to leave and go cry in the darkness of your room.

She somehow convinced you into a UA dorm party. Usually she would go and you and Bakugo, your boyfriend, would hang out. But, she was able to drag you into the class 2-B Christmas party.

"Hey, I don't feel too well. I'm gonna go to my room and sleep," you lied.

"But we just got here!" Mina pouted as you stood up and began walking out of the main building.

"Sorry Mina, I love you and all but I'm gonna leave." You waved with a fake smile.

"Ok girly, I'll check on you later though just to make sure it isn't an excuse!" She pointed her finger at you, then grabbed your shoulders and hugged you. "Bye!" She waved as you walked away.

You made your way past the dancing couples and drinking teenagers, slipping outside into the cold mid-November night.

The sidewalk you walked quickly on was long and curved. Your shadow walked beside you along with little bugs and leaves.

2-A's dorm was right in front of you now, you clicked a key card to the front door and stepped inside.

The inside was much quieter, your footsteps the only noise as you walked to the elevator. You pressed the '3rd floor button', stepping back and leaning your head against the wall of the metal elevator.

The elevator dinged once you made it to the third floor. You stepped out, and walked to dorm 20.

You slide your key inside the hook, and opened your door. The lights stayed off as you set your shoes by the door and walked to your bathroom.

The bright light made your eyes flinch, as you looked around for only one thing, your razor.

"Where is it," you whispered frantically. Tears began streaming down your cheeks as you became more frustrated.

Instead of finding the razor, you walked out and grabbed your lighter. You flicked the back of it, a spark starting.
The flame danced and swayed with your fast yet harsh breathing.

Your hand wiped away your tears and pulled up your sleeve. The flame was brought to your wrist and began burning your arm.

Small black ashy marks showed up onto your skin. You dropped the lighter and covered your whimpers.

"I deserve to be hurt," you whispered lowly. You kicked the lighter out of anger, which caused a loud screech as it slid across the floor.

"Y/N? Are you in there?" A knock at your door caused you to jump. You wiped your tears and pulled down your sleeves.

"Hey Katsuki!" You answered the door, looking up at your blonde boyfriend.

"Your back so soon?" He asked, stepping closer towards you.

"Yeah, sorry I had a headache!" You were acting really weird, and it didn't help you were trying to lie to someone who knew you better than you knew yourself.

He didn't say anything, he just stepped into the room. As he got closer he picked you up by your thighs and set you into his lap on your bed. He dug his head into your neck and wrapped his hands around your waist.

"What's wrong?" He asked, his tone low and serious.

"Nothing, I'm ok." You lied, grabbing at your right sleeve. He didn't know that you cut and burned yourself, no one knew.

"Why are you holding your-" he grabbed your arm, which made you yelp.

"Ow! Katsuki your hurting me!" You pulled your arm away from him.

"Why does it hurt when I touch your wrist? I barely grabbed you!?" He asked, a weird tone and expression on his face. "Answer me Y/N," he looked at your arms.

"Ummm, well." He pulled up your sleeve before you could even respond. His face looked so confused, tears began forming in his eyes as well as yours.

"Why?" His voice trembled as he exsamed your wrist. All your deep cuts, bruises, burn marks and scars were visible.

They were something no one had ever seen.
Not even him.

"I. I'm-"

"Why!?" He asked loudly, you flinched at his tone. "It's because of me? Isn't it?" He stood up off your bed, looking away from you.

Your body began to shake and tremble as he looked back at you. He looked frustrated, angry, but most importantly he was terrified.

"I'm sorry, just tell me what I did wrong." He whispered, his voice shakey and small. "I'm so sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry." He repeated it over and over again.

"It's not you I promise! Katsuki I love you so much, it's just-" you swallowed loudly. "I'm just not right for this program and it took me a whole school year to figure that out. So instead of dropping out and making a big fuse, I punish myself. It's no big deal," you laughed at the last part like it was some sike joke.

He ran up to you and hugged you.

"Y/N, your the strongest hero I know. I don't know how you can't see that?" He sounded surprised.

"I know Katsuki, you tell me everyday in your own way." You realized he was only trying to help, so you shut off your sarcastic responses. "I love you," you whispered. He still didn't look too happy.

"Stop hurting yourself," he demanded.

"I promise, I'm sorry Katsuki. I shouldn't have hid it from you,"

"You shouldn't have done it at all." He whispered. You began crying again, this time you didn't try hiding it.

You ducked your head into his chest as he rubbed your back.

"You need sleep," he whispered. He grabbed your body and pulled you to your bed. "I love you," he whispered.

"I love you too Katsuki." You choked, he rubbed your head comfortingly.

"Go to sleep dumba-" he stopped.
"Y/N, go to sleep Y/N." You grinned at his correction, laughing slightly. "Oh shut it," he whispered into your hair.

You closed your eyes, and drifted to sleep.

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1043 words without this. Sorry again, I'm not good with the after math of shit. :)