The girl stuck in books

embarrassed

I don't think I've ever been that embarrassed in my life.

When he walked out I made a mental note to lock my door. Does he not know how to knock?

I don't think I can go downstairs. How am I going to face him.

I got off my bed and walked over to my full body mirror. I fixed my hair and put on some pajama shorts and a random shirt I found on the floor.

I quickly walked downstairs knowing my mom was mad that I took too long.

I maintained eye contact with the floor as I took a seat, I heap of mashed potatoes lays on my dinner plate, ketchup drizzled over it. 

I smile at my mom, she knows I don't like a lot of meat, when it's chewy it makes me want to throw up so on nights where we have meat she just gives me the sides. I do not want to hear any comments on my choice of dressing. 

Alex kept looking at me and laughing while I was trying to eat my food, which made me really self conscious so I threw my fork on the table, a bit much if you would have asked me 2 seconds later when it slammed into the hardwood table. 

all conversation halted and I pointed my finger over at Alex, "stop laughing at me." I huff out and shoot daggers at his handsome face. "I'm not." he keeps a straight face and continues to eat his food.

"yes, you were" i push out and watch as his eyes slowly drag up from his plate to my face. "no. I wasn't" 

"yes-" 

"this dinner was so good mom, thank you." Josh interrupts our feud.

"do you guys want to see this video?" mischief creeps up into Alex's face as he leans over the table and presses play on the phone. 

I could not see it because he was sitting on the same side of the table as me, while my mom and Josh were on the opposite side. Even though I couldn't see it, I could as hell hear it.

"CUZ YOU"RE A BLOOD SUCKER, FAME FUCKER-" I leap forward and take Alex's phone. My mom and brother were laughing hard at my screechy voice.

I immediately turned off the video. Alex takes the phone back and laughs at me as well. Anger consumes me, yes it would have been funny if I consented to him recording me. I scoot my chair back and stomp upstairs.

Kill me know. 

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i finally decided to take a shower after contemplating it for over half an hour. I pad my way through the hall, the door was shut but it was probably because someone took a shit.

I opened the door only to be face to face with a half naked Alex.

Water droplets ran from his hair, down his abs, but disappearing into the towel that was wrapped low on his waist.

I let my eyes scan his body and he stood there staring at me.

after a hot minute, he cleared his throat. And to think I couldn't have been more embarrassed earlier was an understatement.

"S-sorry" I apologize as I quickly leave the room before I do something more embarrassing. I laid on my bed and screamed in my pillow.

But after a little I stared blushing because he looked so hot. Oh my goodness, the way the water ran down his body, how low the towel was exposing his v-line. After a few minutes I heard the bathroom door open and footsteps walk down the hall.

Alex has his own room here. I don't know why, I've never asked. I think it has something to do with his parents.

My dad left us when I was 10, now I'm 16. I haven't seen him since. My mom bought us a house with the money left from the divorce, and saved up for Josh's car. Now she works at some top secret office. I have no clue what she does.

I walk down the hallway towards the bathroom door, passing Alex's room which is right across from mine, next to his is Josh's and across from his room is the bathroom. At the very end of the hallway was another guest bedroom, no one has stayed in it yet. 

I walk into the bathroom which smells like men's body wash and is foggy from Alex's shower.

The next thing that pops into my head is a naked Alex. I mean he left little for imagination.

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After my shower veryyyy long everything shower, I quickly walk to my room with just a towel wrapped around my body, I mean it was my house and I hate getting dressed in a steamy bathroom. I also hate the feeling of wet hair just hanging there so I am excited to braid it so it will be wavier tomorrow.

I was so close to reaching my room when Alex walked out his door, I slammed into his bare chest and almost fell to the ground when he caught me by the waist.

His hair was damp and curled. He was wearing gray sweatpants with his boxers showing at the top. Did i mention he had no shirt on?! oh my gosh I think I'm gonna faint. 

He held me like that and stared. I felt my towel slipping so I quickly pulled it tighter and stood up fully. "Thanks" I barely whispered as I bolted to my room.

Guess we both saw each other almost naked today.

Not that I was complaining.

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The week went by the same, Alex stayed at our house, and I was forced to ride in the back of my brothers Wrangler.

I got more threats from Jessica but there was little I could do when he literally sleeps in the same house as me.

Now that I think about it, I haven't really talked to Alex or Josh since Monday, and It's friday night now. I try to avoid them in school so I don't get jumped by Jessica and her minions. And when I get home I just read.

A knock on the door makes me jump out of my skin, I thought I was home alone because of how quiet it was. 

"Come in!" I yelled thinking it was my brother. I was in plaid pajama pants and a black crop top. I was re-reading the "A Good Girls Guide To Murder" series when Alex walked in.

His eyes slowly raked up and down my body and I felt so self conscious.

I crossed my arms around my stomach so he would stop looking at me. I knew I wasn't fat but it was hard to believe I was skinny.

"Josh wants to know if you wanna watch a movie."

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YESSSSSSSS ANOTHER CHAPTER EDITED. I am basically just adding more scenes, and one thing I know for sure is that I will be deleting the whole entire last chapter. It sucks so bad.