And then.... I almost lost you....

Summer Moved On....

Ohm woke up, turning to where Nanon normally used to sleep, wanting to hug and kiss him Good morning. But when he turned to Nanon's side of the Bed, there was no one there. Nanon was Nowhere to be seen or found. Ohm got up and went to the bathroom, showering and getting ready for the day. He figured Nanon would be in the kitchen, preparing breakfast, as Nanon always did, after a ' Night like that'. But there was no one in the Kitchen either. Ohm became more and more anxious, as he ran around the apartment, searching every room and every corner for Nanon's presence, but there was nothing – nothing, but quietness. Where had Nanon gone too?
"Maybe he is just out, getting some food to prepare breakfast...", Ohm mumbled to himself, but he soon found Nanon's bag with his wallet and Phone inside. Nanon never left the house without those two things. Ohm was panicking now. Where was his beloved Nanon? Did someone come in and kidnapped him? Ohm was freaking out as he went up and down Nanon's room, trying to figure out, where his boyfriend had disappeared to but he was clueless. If Nanon was hurt somewhere, not able to breath or move on it's own, Ohm would loose it. He would have literally killed the person behind his agony. Ohm slowly but surely hyperventilated, feeling the air in his lungs fading. He didn't have access to Nanon, he didn't know where he was, who he was with and how he was. Ohm couldn't deal with that. He had to go out and search for him – NOW. He went to the wardrobe, getting cloths from his side of the wardrobe, since he always kept spare cloths at Nanon's place and got himself ready to go out, to search for Nanon.

Meanwhile....

"Hey...watch it little boy", a Woman yelled at Nanon after crushing into him on the street.
"I am sorry..", Nanon replied, sniffing from crying almost the whole way. It was 7 o'clock in the morning and Nanon was out in the streets, taking a walk – or better yet – fleeing the uncomfortable situation he was in. Even though he had incredible Sex, he wasn't able to close his eyes and sleep. He was thinking about what had happened before the sex and after his boyfriend came by to pay him an unpleasant surprise visit. He shivered thinking about it, tears falling down now more and more. Every time he tried to be wipe them away, more tears replaced the former, until Nanon gave up.
He broke down on a bench he discovered, not far from where he was headed. He needed to sit down and cry properly. What was he supposed to do? It turned out that Mark was right, P' Arm was right, P'Leo was right, even Chimon, his other best friend had tried to warn him at a curtain point in time. Nanon was always defending the love of his life – Ohm – his Ohm. But was he still his Ohm? Nanon didn't know himself sometimes. He would look into Ohm's eyes and find only sincerity and love in there – on other occasions though, he would look into Ohm's eyes and see only rage and anger, dangerous anger that mostly led to something else entirely. Nanon didn't know what to do. He knew Ohm loved him, but he also knew that there was something seriously wrong with that love.
His Boyfriend needed help – professional help – or else he would lose himself. Nanon hid his face in his hands, hoping to vanish along with these thoughts, into thin air. His head was spinning and his heart was hurting from the realization that just hit. He couldn't live without Ohm but he also couldn't be with him like this. It wasn't save. Nanon flinched by the sudden touch on his shoulder. He looked up to find...
"Mark? W-What are you doing here?"
"I could ask you the same thing...", Mark took a seat next to Nanon on the bench, smiling at him and holding an Umbrella over both of their heads. Nanon hadn't even realized that it was raining.
Mark put his free hand around Nanon, when he flinched back again, not wanting Mark to touch him. He turned his head to the left and to the right, looking like someone who was trying to hide an ongoing affair from his partner.
"Please...don't "
"Let me guess...Afraid a curtain someone will see us and lose his mind?", Mark chuckled but Nanon didn't find the last comment amusing at all.
"Stop saying that Mark...you don't know anything about us..."
"I know that he is hurting you Non...and that he is making you unhappy"
"He is not...don't say stuff you don't know anything about..."
"Oh yeah...then why are you crying then?...And don't dare tell me that you are not...I can SEE it...", there was really no denying in that. Nanon was crying for the past 4 hours straight, his sleep deprivation not helping the situation at all. Unfortunately, Mark wasn't stupid either. Anyone could have connected the dots at this point.
"Noon...I am worried about you...this is at least the third time I have seen you like this...please get away from him... you deserve so much better...", Mark looked at him with a serious and sad face. He really was worried about Nanon. Nanon knew that, but he was to stubborn to admit it to himself.
Ohm wasn't always like that.
"I know you think, he wasn't always like that and that you can fix him...People like that, can't be fixed...they need professional help", Nanon turned to Mark to look at him. Mark narrowed his head to look down on his feet.
"My Dad was violent towards me and my brother. He would beat us and yell at us and afterwards he would apologize, saying that what he did...he did it out of love and that we made him do it...", Nanon was shocked. He didn't know Mark went through a similar situation. He patted his shoulder to console him.
"One time, he-he punched my Mum for coming home from work too late...and broke her nose...my brother and I called the police shortly after and they took him away...My Mum yelled at us and cried like crazy, screaming his name, wanting him to come back...she was so blindly in love with him that she didn't realize that he was a toxic person." Mark's eyes were now filled with tears and Nanon looked at him with great sorrow. That's why he was so eager to stop Nanon from pursuing a further connection with Ohm, he wanted to spare Nanon from the same faith.
"I am sorry that this happened to you, friend", Nanon hugged him tight after that. Mark went through so much pain, that he wondered how he was still able to smile like that. Nanon wanted to break the hug, but couldn't as Mark was clinging on to him tightly. The Rain had stopped and the Sun was shining now. Mark slowly loosened his tight grip on Nanon, faces now only inches apart, starring at eachother. Mark slowly moved closer to Nanon, noses now touching. Nanon couldn't help it, he was suddenly hypnotized by Mark's eyes, moving closer as well....What the fuck was happening?
He and Mark were just friends...but still..he found it incredibly hard to break away from this trance.
They moved closer and closer and closer....
"Non?", both of them jumped back, when they heard a familiar Voice calling Nanon.
"Chimon?", Chimon eyed both Mark and Nanon curiously.
"Wh-What are you doing here?"
"Well...I believe we are outside, on a street where practically everyone could just walk by, taking a walk or going to work, jogging...pick one... Option..", Chimon was now looking at only Nanon now,"eeehmm Non...can we talk for a second?"
"Yeah, of course sure..yeah -eehm- Mark it was good to see you", Nanon turned to Mark waving him goodbye before turning back to Chimon, visibly embarrassed by what seemingly just happened.
"Yeah, was good to see you pal...we will be leaving then...", Chimon closed off, taking Nanon by the hand and walked away from Mark and that awful bench they were just sitting on. Mark waved them goodbye or at least tried to, as Chimon rushed Nanon on to the next street.

"What the FUCK WAS THAT???", Chimon yelled at Nanon.
"What was what? I don't know what you are talking about....", Nanon damn well knew what Chimon was talking about – he just didn't want to address it.
"Fuck Non...what the hell are you doing..? If you have fallen in love with some other Guy, please have the decency to break up with your current boyfriend...alright?"
"Wait....What?"
"Don't 'Wait-What'- Me Nanon..I just stopped you from kissing Mark..."
"What? No..I-We weren't.."
"What..? Kissing?"
"No..I mean yeah- I mean...NO!"
"You are so confused, you don't even know what you are saying...fuck Non..what the hell am I going to tell Ohm?"
"Wait...Why would you tell Ohm anything in the first place?"
"Well for starters..that poor Guy is walking around town, searching for you everywhere, since you decided to leave your Phone and your Wallet home, while going to visit your little side piece of affair..."
"Can you please stop saying that...you got it all wrong"
"Oh Reeaaalllyy....did I now? Wanna accuse me of being blind?"
"No but..listen..It really wasn't what it looked like"
"Non...I am really disappointed in you...of all the people, I thought you would NEVER do something like that...What if Ohm was the one finding the two of you? What then huh? You know how jealouse he can be over you..."
"Yes...I know.."
"Then why do this?", Nanon was speechless. Was he really about to kiss Mark? He couldn't remember. He hugged him and Mark didn't want to let him go, this much he remembered, but what happened after that?
"Do you even still love Ohm? I noticed some changes in your relationship..."
"Of course I still love him..I will always love him and only him..."
"Then tell him the truth...call him and tell him where you are before he sends half of the GMM stuff into the mental facility. He is currently walking around like a mad man telling everyone that someone had kidnapped you...", Nanon chuckled and looked at Chimon skeptically.
"Why are laughing Non?? I am not joking...sometimes I don't think you realize how much that Dog of a Man loves you..", That was an understatement Nanon thought. He perfectly knew how much Ohm "loved" him, if that even fell under the word love. He would rather call it...
"Obsession...yeah, that describes it more...he is not in love with you he is obsessed with you and...always was in my opinion.", Chimon took out his Phone and handed it to Nanon.
"Call him...and tell him you are fine...", Nanon hesitated. Chimon noticed that Nanon's hands were shaking.
"Non...is everything ok?", Nanon nodded, dialed Ohm's Number and waited for him to pick up.
"Hello?", why was a Woman picking up?
"Hello...this is Nanon Korapat, may I speak to Ohm Pawat?"
"Who are you?", This woman had some nerve, Nanon thought.
"Excuse me but who are you? I am his... close friend..hand him his phone please.."
"I am sorry, Mr. Korapat, that is not possible. I am a Nurse. I can not tell you much because you are not directly related... but Mr. Chittsawangdee was admitted to this hospital not long ago...I am sorry, that is all I can tell you right now.", and then she hanged up. Nanon stood there ice cold and shocked. What did the woman just say? Ohm was in a hospital?
"Non..what the fuck happened? You look like you just saw a ghost..."
"Oh-Ohm is in a hospital...She couldn't give me any further Info...", Nanon was in shock. What had happened to Ohm? Was it serious? Was it a life and death situation?
All Nanon could think of, was the last few minutes, when he had almost made the biggest mistake of his life, kissing Mark. He would have destroyed everything he had ever cherished – everything he had ever loved for a simple stupid and weak moment.
He hoped that his realization of wanting to be with Ohm – didn't come to late..