And then.... I almost lost you....

Seven Devils

Time meant nothing. People meant nothing. He would have probably stopped breathing if this wasn't a God giving automatism of human behavior. Drinking was essential for him to function. Eating not so much, so he refused doing so. He didn't want to talk. He didn't want to exist. There was something powerful and sinister eating its way into his heart, leaving a massive black hole. Whatever it was, it was strong and powerful and painful. He couldn't stop it. It spread like a parasite, like an infection slowly but surely killing him from the inside out. He felt hopeless. Alone. Sad. Devasted. Misunderstood. Soul-less. He was just a shallow of his old self, living only because he couldn't actively kill himself, not because he didn't want to, but because it was illegal.
He had nothing to live for, no reason to be happy or to move on. Ever since that faithful day, he felt nothing but Pain. And it grew inside him, just like a pregnant woman's stomach. Soon it would explode inside him and then...hopefully...hopefully, he could die.

"I don't know what to do anymore...he has been like this for the past 2 weeks now"
"Mae... I know its hard but give him some time..I am sure he will get over it...we have all been there and we have all survived..."

"Tay...this is different. My son has gone through a lot of heartbreaks....a lot...I was there, my daughter Nonnie was there...we have all experienced him, with heartbreaks but this...this is different. He terrifies me. Ever since we came back from the hospital, he has been refusing to eat, to speak, to go out, to meet friends, to do anything for that matter, anything that might take his mind of it but No...he is just.."

"Just what?"
"Come...I'll show you...then you can see for yourself!", Ning, Nanon's Mother brought Tay upstairs, where Nanon's room was. She knocked three times, warning her son of coming in with a visitor.
Tay stepped in and found an unresponsive, out of the window starring-Nanon on a single Chair, situated in the middle of his room. He wasn't moving, not even an inch. He was sitting perfectly still on his Chair, not being bothered by the presence of Tay and his mother, it seemed. Ning turned to look at Tay, and gave him a look saying 'did I over exaggerate?', tearing up again. She was clearly concerned and terrified for her son, and Tay perfectly understood why. Apart from him being unresponsive and inhumanly still, he looked and smelled terrible as well. It seemed as if he hadn't taken care of himself for ages. Nanon was always someone who was clean, well dressed and well kept, but this young man right in front of him? – That wasn't Nanon. Tay took two steps towards him.

"Hey..Non?...Its me Tay...", no respond. It was as if Tay wasn't even in the room.

"Non..? Please say something, we are all worried about you...your mother even called me and Newy to come over and talk to you..", there was still no response from Nanon. He didn't even blink in Tay's direction....as if he was air. Tay had one last idea. He thought of it a while ago, but didn't want to use it
on Nanon..not in his state. But it seemed as if nothing else helped. Newy would kill him if ever found out that he was about to do, what he was about to do to his Nanon.
Tay crouched next to him and whispered into his ear.
"Non...I didn't want your Mum to hear this but there is someone downstairs waiting for you in my Car...", Nanon still didn't seem impressed, so Tay continued.
"It is Ohm....he is leaving for London forever and wanted to say one last goodbye to you..", to that, to his mother's shock and relieve, Nanon responded. He widened his eyes and turn his head slowly in Tay's direction – BINGO!
"Ohm?", he whispered back, now shifting his entire body in Tay's direction. Ning held her mouth with both her hands. Her son responded... but to what, she didn't know.
"If you want to see Ohm one last time..you have to shower, get yourself dressed, eat something small and come with me.."
"Bu-But It will take too long...he will be gone by then...", Nanon's voice came out shallow and thin, almost like a little boy, confessing to his mother that, he had lost her expensive jewelry.
"No...no...he promised to wait for you..but you have to hurry a little", Nanon's eyes lid up, which made Tay's heart pinch, but he had to keep up the false façade...at least until Nanon ate something. Nanon hurried, taking a shower, brushing his teeth, wearing something nice, styling his hair. He was becoming more and more the Person, Tay remembered him to be.
"hoop, not so fast....have you eaten something?"
"No..but there is nothing to eat anyway..."
"Here honey...I brought this for you...you can take at least a bite", Tay glared at him and Nanon gave in.
He took a bite, then two, then three until eventually everything was devoured. He really was hungry.
"Ok...now can we go see him...please?", Tay watched as Nanon rushed past him, towards the door, straight to his car. He was surprised to find no one there.
"Whe-Where is he?" Tay came out, looking at him dejected. He knew he had lied to Nanon and he knew that it was a cruel thing to do, since Nanon longed for nothing more than to see, hear or speak to Ohm.
Nanon slowly took a few steps backwards, shaking his head, when realization hit, hard. Tay lied to him. There was no Ohm waiting for him in the car, wanting to say goodbye. There was no Ohm wanting to speak with him or see him. Nanon got tricked, and he should have known better. He knew that this couldnt be true as he tried contacting Ohm in every way possible, after he left him two weeks ago with no remorse and no turning back. Ohm had just left him, as if they were nothing, as if Nanon was nothing, as if their love never existed, he just cut him off, moving on.
"you will get over me, just like I am over you...", "try and be happy, just like I am ", he said and wrote cold hearted. There was nothing but indifference in his eyes and in his words. Nanon remembered that day, as if it was yesterday...how could he not? It was the worst day of his existence.