I'm not friendly. I don't like to be in crowded places. I'd rather be alone. Siguro nga mas ok yung magisa ka lang kaysa you're always been rejected.
I'm hurt, totally. Nanginginig nga ako e. Knce again my husband rejected me. He chose his friends over. Again. Wala naman bago. He sees me as nothing. Masakit din. Sobra. Pero all I can do is to cry. I can't do anything kasi makakatanggap lang ako ng mga hateful words. And I'm sick of it. It's all in my head.
All I wanted is to be with someone who'll see me as a priority. Nakakasawa maging 2nd or 3rd option. Mahirap maging no one.
I was never a wallflower. As in never. Everyone gets intimidated by me. Pero ngayon. I feel so small.
I was never been a wife to him. Para lang akong kasambahay. And hurts like hell.
I wish God to take away all my pain. Naiisip ko magsuicide. But I know it's not the answer. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of being alone in this marriage. I'm tired of everything.
Oh please God help me.
