Where We Meet

5: Drop Me Off

'Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders,

Let me walk upon the waters,

Wherever you would call me.'

*

'Well, your Beta HCG levels are high, indicating that you are indeed pregnant, Miss Shae.' the gynecologist says.

Aaron squeezes my hand reassuringly, and I squeeze his hand back. We had already known, and been pretty sure of it. This was just confirmation. Even so, the thought of a baby inside me made me feel powerful and delicate at the same time. I had read somewhere that women are the only vessel between the real and spiritual worlds. It made me feel strong, but also the thought that I could make one wrong move and it could harm my baby, made me fear so much that I felt I had to move every limb carefully.

'How far along am I?' I ask.

'Not enough to get an ultrasound, unfortunately. Two to three weeks, I would presume. I am writing down some prenatal vitamins for you. You should start taking these immediately. If you work out, I think you should take it easy. Just for the first few weeks.' she says.

'Okay.' I say.

Aaron and I are silent as the doctor types some things into a computer and takes a look at the reports. Her face concentrates and her expression drops a bit and I am almost about to go into an anxiety attack.

'What's wrong?' I immediately ask.

'What do you mean? Is there something wrong?' Aaron replies immediately, looking at the doctor.

The doctor looks at us and composes her expression before speaking.

'Huh? Oh, no. Nothing's wrong. there's just some ups and downs in your test results that we normally don't prefer to see, but it's normal enough. I'll let you know if there's anything to be concerned about.' she says, nonchalantly.

I still feel paranoid, but tell myself it's probably just the hormones.

'Okay.' I say.

Suddenly, the door to the office opens and my heart sinks when I see Jay walking in. He's wearing a black t-shirt and cargo pants. His hair is tied up in a man-bun so delicious, I feel my entire body salivating.

What the hell is he doing here?

I look towards Aaron for an explanation and he looks guilty. He scratches the back of his head, looking sheepish.

'Hey, man. Thanks for coming.' Aaron says, shaking Jay's hand.

'No problem.' Jay says. He doesn't look even slightly disturbed. His voice is all cheerful and happy. Our eyes meet, and I can't seem to find words, but I know I have to greet him normally in front of Aaron. So, despite the thunderous beating of my heart in my body, I manage to greet him.

'Hi.' I say, with a smile.

Our eyes meet and it feels like my entire body is burning. It feels as though I am dry as the desert, and the only water I can see is him. I just hope he isn't a mirage.

'Hey.' he says back. His voice shows some sort of fatigue. He seems weary as he says it, but I'm not sure if it has something to do with me, or with his personal life.