Confessions

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Trigger warning: SA, Suicide, Self harm

Omniscient POV

"When we go in there, it's no going back.." Chloe reminded her little sister of the repercussions of what they were about to do.

"What else do we have to lose?" Halle responded placing the loaded Glock into her waist band before throwing on her ski mask

That was true... the two girls didn't have anything to lose given their mother Kiyana had died 12 months ago from suicide.

Kiyana Bailey had struggled with depression, anxiety and body dysmorphia since childhood. Being from Houston, she would always see girls with coke bottle figures. Thick thighs, round butt, no stomach and it made her really self conscious

Kiyana was a very petite woman, at 4'11 only weighing 100 pounds. she was bullied her entire life, people would shove food in her mouth to get her to gain weight. Labeled as the school freak, no one wanted to be her friend except 1 girl.

Beyoncé Knowles!

Beyoncé had been Kiyana's only friend her entire life. They had been best friends since 2nd grade, Beyoncé was her angel. Never judged or made her insecure about her weight, in fact she forced Kiyana to embrace her body at all times.

When the bullying got bad, Beyoncé was always there to remind Kiyana that she was perfect. That she loved her and that was all that mattered, those words meant the world to her because no one else showed her the kind of love Beyoncé did not even her own mother

Raised in a single parent household, her mother was extremely hard on her especially with her being the only child. Nothing she did was ever good enough only adding more fuel to her troubling anxiety.

Everything felt like hell for Kiyana, except for her relationship with Beyoncé. That was until their senior year of high school.

Beyoncé's career was just taking off and she was beginning to get more and more popular throughout the entire world. Only thing that kept her mind off of superstardom was her friendship with Kiyana and her boyfriend Lamelo

Beyoncé loved Lamelo despite his known reputation of being a bad boy and a player. Everyone knew of Lamelo's cheating but no one knew how abusive he was... not to his girlfriend but to her bestfriend.

Lamelo had sexually assaulted Kiyana on multiple occasions while Beyoncé was away in the studio and shooting music videos.

He knew kiyana would never fight him off because of her size and he took advantage of that. He fetishized her small fragile body and couldn't control himself. Though Beyoncé was his girlfriend it didn't stop him from fondling and raping Kiyana almost every time he saw her, it had gotten to a point where she just completely dropped out of school so she wouldn't have to see him.

Kiyana tried to tell her bestfriend everything her boyfriend had put her through but Beyoncé just ignored her. She didn't believe the 'love of her life' could do something so horrible, instead of supporting her friend and breaking up with her bastard boyfriend... she called her friend a liar.

That hurt her so bad, She couldn't believe her "Angel" would turn her back on her just like that.

Kiyana became pregnant with Lamelo's twin baby girls two months into her abuse and that set Beyoncé off. Not only did she not believe Kiyana, she went as far as to blame her!