My Husband's Rival

CHAPTER 6

EIRLYS

"Let's do it."

I was walking behind Draven habang papasok kami sa office niya. Isinama niya ako rito dahil wala akong magawa sa bahay at natapos ko na rin ang mga kailangan kong gawin sa eskuwela.

"Do what?"

He pulled the visitor's chair for me. Umupo ako ro'n habang matamang tinitignan si Draven. He started to scan the documents in front of him.

"The sex. Let's do it," I said while raising my eyebrow.

Umangat ang tingin niya sa akin na para bang nagulat sa sinabi ko.

Anong nakakagulat do'n? He's my husband. Mas magulat siya kung sa iba ko hihingiin ang tungkol do'n.

Ilang buwan na mula nang ikasal kami pero wala pa ring nangyayari sa amin. And I'm getting worried about us. Kung wala na sila ni Eliza, then why can't he have sex with me? I'm up for it! Baka kung sakaling gawin namin 'yon ay maramdaman ko ang sarili ko sa kanya.

Pinagsalikop niya ang kanyang mga daliri pagkatapos niyang ibaba ang mga paper na hawak niya. He stared at me; I can almost feel his eyes against my soul.

Tinitimbang niya kung nagsasabi ba ako ng totoo.

"Why are you asking for it?" That was the dumbest question I've ever heard.

"Because you're my husband? And dapat lang na ibigay mo sa akin 'yon, right?" Halos umirap ako nang sagutin siya.

He sighed. "We don't have feelings for each other—"

"It's because we're not trying!" I snapped.

"And this sex is your way, hmm?"

I pressed my lips together.

"Then, ano pang way ang naiisip mo?" I asked.

He chuckled sarcastically and shook his head. "You really think like a kid."

Nalaglag ang panga ko sa sinabi niya.

Hindi ako sumama rito para laitin niya o ano! I'm here hindi lang dahil bored ako kundi pati na rin sa reason na gusto kong humanap ng way para mag-work itong relasyon namin!

Fuck. Yes. He cheated on me. On our honeymoon, he slept with his girlfriend, but I don't fucking care! I don't even like him! I don't even care about him! Ang habol ko lang dito ngayon ay maging maayos na kami not only for us, but also for our family!

My heart clenched. My thoughts... are making me sick. What the fuck.

I don't care kung nagloko man siya sa akin sa unang gabi namin? Really, Eirlys? What kind of morals do you have? You're swallowing these for what? For your family? Para hindi sila ma-disappoint sa iyo? Nakakahiya.

Nag-init ang gilid ng mga mata ko.

Noong una pa lang, hindi na dapat ako pumayag dito. Noong nalaman ko pa lang na may girlfriend siya, I should've turned down our wedding. Hindi ko na sana inisip ang lagay ng pamilya ko. Hindi ko na sana inisip ang lagay ng pamilya niya, ang kagustuhan nilang makuha ang justice sa nanay at asawa nila.

Draven is wrong. I don't think like a kid. I think like a selfless woman because I am really selfless.

"Well, forgive me if you think that I think like a kid just because I want us to work. Maybe you can see me as a desperate woman now. I can't blame you, though. I see myself as a desperate woman, too. All because I want us to fucking work."

I stood up.

"I don't want to make an effort for us again. Malinaw pa sa sikat ng araw na ayaw mong mag-work itong relasyon natin. And I know why. Because you still love her, right? I'm not saying these because I'm in love with you or what. I'm just desperate to make this work, but you don't. Don't worry, I won't do anything anymore. I don't give a fuck if you want us to stay like this, miserable, forever."