Sometimes I think things are my fault
even when they aren't
like someone came into my life
just for me to push them away
to be ignored for my foolishness
How I wish I could just reverse time
to think
think about how's that going to affect me
me as a person
or me as an emotion
How can I not think of you
While I'm scrolling through songs
that you told me were your favorite
or songs you thought was garbage
While I'm scrolling through our text messages
missing the old us
I'm the reason it stopped
While I'm scrolling the the images and videos of you being the dumb person you were
how I loved that dumb person
Now im the one beat up
listening to the playlists about you
with the songs you loved
reliving our memories
It was my fault that ended
The day I cracked was the day you didn't say goodbye
The day other girls had there hands in your hair
Laughing at jokes you made that wasn't even funny
I guess that was also my fault
mine for not being amusing enough for you
We shared bracelets
We held pinkies
The memory of when I told you that was my favorite shirt you had on
The memory of you laughing at how mad I got at a game of Uno
I forget
It's my fault that it ended
I made a decision
A decision without think
Actions come with consequences
Maybe I just miss you
Maybe just the thought
Or the how many smiles we shared through our texts
Or how many times you could make me blush with a sentence
How you told me your deepest secrets
and I told you mine
Now you ignore my messages
and swipe them off your screen as of
I'm just a distraction
How could I keep doing this?
Forgetting
Forgetting that this is what I wanted
Forgetting that this was my fault
