(Shinobus POV)
"Shinobu..." Tsukasa said as he looked at me, eyes widen, "if i'm gonna be honest, i have to agree with Giyuu. That's like stalking someone. not cool" He slurped his drink. "I know, I know, but that guy, he had someone important to me. If i didn't finish the mission, he would've done something to them"
Tsukasa put his cup on the table and put his fingers together.
"Shinobu. Making friends is easy, only if you're an extrovert, but losing their trust is also easy, in a matter of seconds. if i were you, i would've got the job done with, and left, without getting attached to him. that's probably the problem with you. you got too attached to him, so you had to tell him, otherwise you would feel hurt and guilty for the rest of your life. a feeling of regret"
I looked at Tsukasa, then back at the table. He's not wrong, infact, he's completely right. But i didn't want to keep it a secret otherwise it would've just hurt more in the end. i'm not working for him anymore, so i don't have anything interfering.
Tsukasa looked at the time, and back at me. "Try and apologize. i believe in you, your explanation isn't valid, i agree with that statement, but i'm sure you'll make up eventually"
i waved Tsukasa goodbye as i headed to my classroom
(Tsukasas POV)
i hope that Shinobu and Giyuu make up, they're meant to be and nothing should get in the way. i mean, other then what Shinobu did, but, you know what i mean.
As i head to my classroom, i see Murata standing outside. I ignore him as always. we got a new seating plan a few days ago, so i'm sitting with Sanemi now. he's really loud, but it's better then sitting next to Murata.
as i try to head in, Murata grabs my arm, he looks at him, sadness filled in his eyes. i can't let guilt takeover me. "what are you doing, let go" i try but he doesn't budge, "Let go Natsuko! i don't wanna talk to you. i have nothing to say to you"
"but i have a lot to say to you" "and i don't wanna hear it!" i say turning to face him. he lets go of my arm and i head inside and sit in my seat. "what's your problem with Murata? y'all in a lovers quarrel or some shit?" Sanemi laughs and i ignore him
Murata walks inside. now you see, the good part is atleast i'm not sitting BESIDE Murata anymore, but guess who sits infront of him? me. it's just me and my bad luck. during lessons, i can feel his gaze poking a hole through my back.
i know he has lots to say, but he doesn't deserve to say it, especially after what happened.
"so class, i have nothing to say to you today. just have this period as study hall. don't goof around" the teacher said then left the room. weird, first time this has happened, well, who wouldn't get tired of us
"Tsu.." i ignore, "Tsukasa" i ignore, "Tsukasa." geez, how many times is he gonna say my name?? i don't want to talk to him anymore! "reply to the poor dude." Sanemi interrupts, "he looks so sad"
as long as you and him will stop ignoring me, fine. i turn around to see Murata looking straight up at me, "it's like the first time you looked up at me since that day" "Murata. what do you want? you made it clear you don't wanna be friends, i don't know why you're still talking to me"
"you said you loved me, how can i not think about it. i heard you whisper something about you dying, Tsukasa."
"it's driving me nuts." oh shit, he heard the last part, "w-well, that has nothing to do with you" he looked at Sanemi, "if the teacher asks, say we're busy" he then grabs my arm and drags me out of the classroom
"Hey! Murata let go of me!" we reach the janitors closet where he opens the door and slams it shut, pinning me against the wall, both hands on my wrists.
"Tsukasa." he looks at me with a serious look in his eyes. i gulp
"where do i start. i know i've been such a jerk, i know i have, and i really have no excuse for that, maybe i was going through something? i don't even know myself. i didn't mean to hurt you, and i didn't mean to slap you or raise my voice at you. i know it brings back memories and i don't wanna trigger them, you've already been through so much"
he pauses
"Tsukasa, i'm inlove with you, like for real. even before Tomioka, during Tomioka, i've always been inlove with you Tsukasa. it's always been you. me being a jerk was to protect you, i knew you were gay, but so did Miya, and you know how Miya is. if he doesn't get what he wants, he'll use anything to get it, after the rumours about Tomioka, i was scared for myself, so i let go of Tomioka, and joined in so my reputation would stay well."
he takes a deep breath before he continues
"if i were to date you, or show some interest in you, who knows what Miya would've done. he could've posted it to the school anonymous board, worse, he could've posted it online, for everyone to see. i could let that happen, because i didn't want anything to happen to you, so i kept my distance from you, acting like i wasn't inlove with you"
"i dated Tomioka so i could get over you, and maybe you could see what would've happened if we were actually dating. i know i hurt Tomioka but seeing you hurt broke my heart. I know i cant apologize in any way, but i'll try to make it up to you, i promise. no matter how long it takes, i'll try as long as i have to until you can forgive me"
i look at Murata. that was a lot to take in
a/n: i know i said first week of june but lowkey i forgot about this chapter which is my apologies but i will be posting chapters frequently starting now :)
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