☆𝕐𝕆𝕌☆ A SEUNGIN FANFICTION

☆CHAPTER 3☆

☆SEUNGMIN☆

I walked to the dorm alone, the key clenched in my right hand, my knuckles turning white. Suddenly the pain from the key hit me and I glanced at my hand. "Oh, shit!" I muttered under my breath. I slipt the key into my pocket and continued walking, trying my best not to think of Jeongin.

Did I already say 'I miss him'?

I finally found dorm room 213.

I struggled to get the key in the lock and after finally figuring it all out, I successfully opened the door. There was already someone there; a boy with white dyed hair.

"Hi," I said. He turned to look at me and my heart almost stopped. Jeongin. It's Jeongin. What is he doing here if he's supposed to be dead!? A bunch of stupid theories ran through my head and I mentally crossed each one of them as impossible. Did he somehow escape his coffin? Was he really buried alive? Was he just unconscious, not actually dead?? Is this his long-lost twin brother? Or does he just coincidentally looks exactly like him???

"Oh, hi! What's your name?" The boy asked with a smile. Jeongin's smile. I stood there staring at him, planted on the spot, my mouth slightly agape. Jeongin's smile disappeared slightly. "D-did you hear what I asked?"

It was as if there was no sound. Like everything was mute. There was only the boy, looking back at me with curiosity in his eyes. The world seemed to have disappeared, and it was just us.

My muscles seemed to move completely on their own as I ran to the boy and hugged him tightly, tears in my eyes. The poor boy stood there, even more confused.

"Jeongin!!" I exclaimed. "Uh...how do you know my name?" The boy asked and it felt as if everything snapped, and I quickly let him go. "I'm sorry!" I said automatically. "That doesn't answer my question though. How do you know my name?" Jeongin asks.

Disappointment and embarrassment seared through me. He isn't the Jeongin I know. He isn't my (dead) best friend. But instead of trying to save the situation, I started to cry like an idiot.

Jeongin was even more confused and I could feel his nervous gaze on me, clearly not knowing what to do.

I don't blame him. I would feel the same if some random dude came into my dorm, stared at me, hugged me for no damn reason, said my name even though I didn't tell him, and started to cry. I felt even more embarrassed.

Finally, Jeongin did something. He placed a comforting hand on me. "A-are you okay?" He asked. I didn't reply and continued crying. I haven't cried like this since Jeongin killed himself. All the bottled-up feelings I had were flooding out like a flood, not wanting to stop.

Jeongin got up. I missed his warmth, but less than a minute later, he came back, a glass of water in his hands.

He handed it to me and I took it, taking a sip. I was able to take a closer look at him. He looked exactly like Jeongin. It was like he was taunting me, just another reminder of what I lost.

I suddenly felt angry at him. Or maybe it was just my disappointment that it wasn't the Jeongin I know. I quickly got up from my position and wiped my tears. "What happened?" Jeongin asked, noticing the very sudden change in my behaviour.

"Please just leave me alone..." I said. Everything is absolutely horrible. The embarrassment was almost unbearable. I just cried in a stranger's arms. "What's your problem!?" Jeongin asked, clearly annoyed. "Just...I don't really feel okay right now. I'm going to sleep if you will allow me," I lied, not wanting to be on his bad side. "O-of course," Jeongin said, super confused with me. My head started to hurt a lot.

These past two months, I have been getting headaches every now and then. They weren't that painful, just uncomfortable. Sleeping or just laying down would eventually get rid of it. However, this one is like electricity surging through my brain, and I could barely see anything. I managed to sit down on my bed. But the headache only lasted less than a minute. 

Then there was a knock on the door and it opened. There stepped in Hyunjin and another boy. They were talking together. "Hey!!" Hyunjin said when he saw me. "H-hi," I said, still sorta recovering from the sudden headache. "Are you okay, you look sorta pale?" Hyunjin asked after looking at me a bit more closely. "Oh, I'm fine! Just a bit tired!" I said with a smile. Trying my best to change my skin colour which is stupid but I still tried. Probably didn't work. Yeah, it obviously didn't. He smiled back. "OK, well then you should sleep!" Hyunjin said.

"I'd like to introduce myself. I'm Chan! You're roommate as well," said the boy who was beside Hyunjin. He looked very kind. I smiled again. "I'm Seungmin," I said, shaking his hand that he had taken out of his hoodie's pocket for me to shake. "Nice to meet you! You've met Jeongin, right?" he asked. "Y-yep! What's his last name?" I said, whispering the last part so Jeongin wouldn't hear me. "Yang. Yang Jeongin. Anyways I'll let you sleep now." Chan replied. My heart beat faster at the name. It's him. How else could someone have the same full name and appearance? I glanced over at him. Now, Chan was talking with him. Jeongin flashed his familiar smile.

It's like torture.

Seeing him right there, yet not being able to hug him like I'd want to. Seeing him not even know me. To be honest, I'd rather him not be here instead. 

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A/N: honestly what the hell is this chapter?? its so shitty but oh well im too lazy to come up with anymore ideas. next chapter will be longer and probably will have a jeongin pov. anyways, thanks for reading. pls continue to read and comment cuz i love reading them. thanks again. 

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