Effort

Chapter I

There's this boy that I adore. He's so beautiful. I could stare at him for hours and it would feel like seconds. Every time I look at him I get electric shocks. He never leaves my mind. I know a lot about him; he loves music especially metal and goth, in his free time he likes to explore abonded places, his favourite colour is black, he doesn't talk much, he's insecure, he holds his phone in a weird way, he's always hurries everywhere, he never even once talked to me. We've never exchanged thoughts, we've never smiled at each other, we've never held eye contact.

Why does my life revolve about everyone but me? I'm always running after someone never concentrating about myself. But he's different. I can imagine liking him. He can be my teenage love that I've always dreamt about. I've only got a year left. 

I hate all the people around me. They annoy me with every little thing they do.  

We only have a week of school left. Hopefully my plan works and we'll meet.

Every time I try to initiate contact something always came up and it wasn't even my fault. It's as if the world would't want us to talk. We're not destined to be with one another. But honestly I couldn't care less. I will be with him no matter the cost.