I won't give up... I won't give up.
No matter what I presented her with, it was all rejected with cruel comments. From weakness and non-acceptance at first, now he has become apathetic towards me. We talk less because I'm obsessed with work and she hasn't sent me a sticker or called me.
Now there are rumors circulating that I will be forced to resign. Everyone sympathizes with me. Even though I worked hard, Boss ML didn't see it that way.
Or... the best thing to do is actually quit.
"You should leave work if you are uncomfortable here."
Yah told me. Now we are outside the office. I say like I'm going to give up.
"I am thinking about it. Even with all my effort, I can't bear it. Khun Sam is like a tiger, we don't know when a tiger will kill us."
"Are you already looking for a new job?"
"Not yet."
"You should look for it then."
We split up when we got to the bus stop. Now, I'm the only one waiting for my bus to arrive. Suddenly... I see a yellow car, passing slowly and honking its horn to get my attention. I remember well, it's Khun Sam's car.
What does she want from me?
Noisy...
She rolls down the car window and beckons to me with a wave of her hand. The bus honks to make her move out of the way, but she doesn't move. In the end, I give up and get in the car the way she wants.
"This afternoon. Why haven't you gone home yet?"
She said it like she wanted to talk to me. But I remain silent and don't answer her.
"Why are you so quiet?"
"You don't hate me, do you?"
"Why are you thinking that?"
"Do you know what you did to me?"
"I separate work from personal relationships. Your work was not good, I needed to comment."
"But what you did is far from comment. You didn't even read it, you just passed your eye and threw it on the floor. He just threw it on the ground in front of the others, as if he wanted to embarrass me in front of them!"
This is the first time I've yelled at her. She is silent.
"If you didn't like my work, you could have let me know. There was no reason to throw it on the floor in front of my peers. Are you trying to get me to quit?"
"When you were interviewed, did HR ask how much work you can handle or can you work under pressure?"
"She asked me yes. But I didn't prepare myself to be forced to resign. She is belittling me."
"If you can't take it, you can leave."
"Well. If you want me to leave, I will."
"..."
"Are you satisfied?"
"I am satisfied now."
When the car stops at a red light, I immediately get out of the car without saying goodbye and without knowing where I am. Khun Sam is shocked to see me leaving, shouts for me, but she is also worried about the car.
"Where are you going, Mon?"
"..."
"Mon!"
I walk to the sidewalk wiping my tears. What an idiot. Why did my idol, the person I admire the most, become this? She's good at getting what she wants and discards it when she's out of use. I can not take it anymore.
