"How much does Tee pay you in salary?"
"Twenty thousand. If I pass the training program, I will receive another two thousand."
"She pays you more than my company. But as my girlfriend, she should pay you more than that."
Khun Sam keeps talking while watching television. She doesn't say anything about her marriage. And I don't want to force her... I'm just waiting for her to tell me.
"What's it? She seems distracted."
"Hmm."
"I'm just thinking about nothing."
"I work? If it's too difficult, you can stay home. I bank you."
"How long can I stay at home without working?"
I keep looking at the television, but Khun Sam looks at me.
"As long as you like."
"If you ever have a family of your own?"
"You are my family."
My heart races. I look at her and feel cherished.
"I'm glad to hear this."
I tilt my face to kiss her on the cheek, but it looks like she wants more. She cups my face and kisses my lips thirstily.
"I just gave you a little kiss."
"The kiss is the beginning of everything."
"You really like that."
"Let's go up."
I wrinkle my nose a little and follow easily.
"I know you like."
***
I try to do everything like I don't know about her marriage. I didn't even mention it to her friends in the group about it. The wedding invitation is still hidden at the bottom of my purse. As much as I want to ask her, I'm afraid to push her. She'll find a way for us to be together... I'm counting on her.
"Are you worried about something?"
Isn't it amazing? When I have no one to vent to, Nop is the only one who listens. I know this well, it's not right to bring my love problems to someone I can tell. But I really don't know what else to do.
"A little bit."
"It's too much, because you came to me. Your only friend."
"Clear."
I sit down next to him and sigh.
"It's so sad to know that I only have you as a friend and you're the only one who listens to me."
"Friendship is just that. We only know who is a true friend in these moments."
Thief for him. When he realizes he starts laughing.
"So what happened? I'm all ears."
"Nop, a girlfriend or a fiance you're going to marry. Who is more important?"
"What you mean?"
"In case..."
"No, just in case. I want to give you some advice. I will tell you the truth."
I know how boring it is to hear half a story. So I decide to tell him everything.
"Khun Sam and I, we are in a relationship. But she is getting married."
"It got giant."
"Yea."
"What she said?"
"I did not say anything. But it's important."
