Tan Lines and Closed Eyes ( Ziall AU)

Chapter 16

Niall's POW

"Oh, morning Niall." Liam chirped from the table as he noticed my appearance in the chilly kitchen. I just didn't get how in the name of god he could be so freaking cheery in the mornings. In my opinion, the sun shining from the window was just a little bit too bright, the floor was just a little bit too cold for my feet that just exited the warm bed of Zayn's, where Zayn was still sound asleep, and the time was just a little bit too fucking early.

" Up for coffee?" 

" Sounds like a heaven." I sighed quietly and rubbed my hands over my eyes.

" You look like you had a restless night." Liam stated as he walked to the coffeemaker. I couldn't help but give him a little 'no shit' look as he came to me with the coffee pot in his firm hold. Liam just let out a chuckle at my grumpiness as he poured me a hot cup of coffee and placed it in front of me.

" You could say that, yeah." I stated before almost moaning. The hot coffee in my mouth felt like a miracle with the sweet bitterness of it, and I could feel the energy rushing to my entire being. I preferred my coffee thick and black. I had officially fallen in love with the coffee brand Liam and Zayn had. It was love at the first taste.

Liam let out a little 'hmh' at that, which I interpreted as an expression of sympathy.

 " You wanna talk 'bout it?" 

" Well, I don't know... You know, I just had to go through the things that happened in my head once again when I told Harry... Like I hadn't already played in my head thousand times." I huffed and yet again poured some of the black liquid down my throat.

"Ah. Well, at least you've discussed the situation afterwards. It's not good to just push the problem aside and pretend it's all okay. It will always backfire later in life." Liam reasoned, as he sipped his coffee, which had a little bit too much creamer in it for my taste.

" Completely true." I answered and gave a little nod to Liam.

" It's a good thing that Zayn didn't just let you be."

" Well yeah, I would still be... there with him without him." I stated and shook my head before opening my mouth again.

"To be honest, first off I really wasn't really keen on the thought of Zayn helping me and you know, knowing about my situation. I lied to him, I lied to everybody and faked that it was fine. But to Zayn, I don't know, I couldn't lie to him." I sighed and shook my head. I  couldn't help the little smile on my face from thinking of the certain lad.

"I remember reading somewhere that the more sexually attractive you find someone, the more difficult it becomes to lie to them."

My head shot up and I looked at Liam with big ass eyes. 

" I, why would you think that I-" I stuttered. I turned my head from him as I felt my face heating up. Liam let out a quiet laugh.

" Oh c'mon Niall, a blind man could see the sexual attraction and love between you two. From the other side of the world."

" Love and sexua- No! Well okay, maybe I- like him. But he certainly doesn't like me, okay? I mean why would he."

" Um excuse you, he does."

" No he doesn't! He probably thinks that I'm just pathetic and he lets me live here because he feels bad for me. I'm disgusting, just no. I'm pathetic, I'm and idiot. I'm fucking clumsy and my hair is fake and ugly and I'm just-why would anyone who looks and is like that love someone like me. I'm used and worthless, I've heard it enough to believe it and no, Liam, he will never ever even look at me that way. I'm, just no..." I felt embarrassed as soon as I was finished, and I pulled my knees to my embrace up to the chair I was sitting on. I peeked at Liam to see how he reacted at my little outburst.