**continuation of paralysed pt.2.**
We've got unfinished business,
That I wish we could finish —
Cause it hurts me so,
To leave you alone.
To have you sob on my shoulder —
And I cannot give you a pat on the back,
Cause I'll be leaving you, soon.Do you still cry in the corner of your room?
I'm sorry I left you so alone.
But situations can't be helped —
And it seems like our destiny
Was already decided for us, by fate.Does your best friend diss me daily?
I deserve it, too.
Do you get drunk on the weekend
And wish my life would come to an end?
I deserve it, too.
Do you wish our past would disentangle
And the poison of my absence
Finally leave you alone?All the songs I write are about you, nowadays,
And that's such an irony —
Cause this seems like an obsessive behaviour —
And funnily,
I was the one who left you first, in the first place.Or have you come to hate
Every remembrance of my presence?It's hard to erase you —
And now I'm in someone else's arms —
Kissing them and wishing
I could hold you instead.When your parents told you I was bad news —
You should've listened —
Now look what I've done to you.
Leaving love and chasing fame —
I question the choice I made.I find something funny
And my finger hovers over your contact —
But then I slump down —
My time for explanation is gone.
I hope your best freind is now
Helping you heal
And taking you to all those amusement parks
I never did —
Because, of course, I was too busy.I am a heartbreaker, a murderer —
And I guess I'm good at it.
And now I'm drowning away from my problems,
Turning up the volume —
Hoping it will help me drown
In the mesmerising beauty of ignorance.I was forever the trouble
People in school thought was cool.
You were the anchor that held me
Grounded to reality —
And I was your Alladin —
Taking you to the land of dreams
On my cursed magic carpet.I wish the best for you —
I hope you don't remember me
And the high I brought along —
The high you got addicted to.
For with every high comes a low
That breaks you down
Forevermore.I wish you the happiest.
And now I'm driving away from my problems —
Hoping it will save me
From the confrontation
And explanation I should've done
Instead of leaving you crying
At the airport, alone.And this is my letter to you
That will hopefully finish our unfinished business.
And I hope you don't remember us —
Cause baby, I have forever been a shitshow
And your heart has forever been made of gold.I hope you don't cry forever.
I can't believe what a huge jerk I am.
YOU ARE READING
chai and an interview with life. (DISCONTINUED)
Poetryfinish all your work and sit down because i will either lull you to sleep or have you wake up, screaming. or maybe we could talk over a vanilla milkshake and fall in love for the night. your call. NOTE: this is the first draft, unedited version. i p...