Promise Me Something

NINETEEN

***Ricky's P.O.V.***

"He's dead Ricky! Kian's dead. He died beside me and I watched him lie in the river and die!" The intensity in her voice made me know she wasn't lying.

"Shh Liv. It's ok. I'm sure he just passed out. Did you call an ambulance?" I rub circles on her back.

"No Ricky. I asked him if I should call someone but he said to leave him be and that he was dying anyways. He-He t-told me that I have to make a video on his channel and say that he won't be coming back but not to say he's dead. Then he told me I have to continue that every Saturday after." Her voice was shaky and she stuttered a few times.

"Are you going to?" I ask her.

"I can't do it Ricky. I can't!" She cried harder. I could feel her warm tears drip down my shirt.

"Maybe the boys and I could do it with you?" I push her off me softly and look into her red, tear filled eyes.

"No. I think if I'm going to do it I should do it on my own." I get up off the bed and go to set my camera up.

"Do it now. Do it while the cut is still fresh. I'll sit right behind the camera and I'll even edit if that makes it better. Do it while you look like you do. Do it while your heart in beating faster than normal. Do it now." She sits up straighter and moves to the end of the bed. She sits cross-legged in her over sized Charmander onesie.

"Tell me when you're recording." I angle the camera her way and zoom it in just enough. I nod as a signal to tell her I'm starting.

***Liv's P.O.V.***

As soon as Ricky nods to tell me he's started recording a wave of fear and confidence washes over me. I do Kian's intro and look over to Ricky who nods at me. I breathe in deeply and hold it for a moment before I begin my 'speech'.

"What's up every guys, it's Liv. I know you're probably thinking 'Where's Kian?' 'Why's his sister here?' well stop thinking that. Kian...Kian is gone. He has gone far away and he's never going to come back. To all those who may be upset by this, don't be. I'll be here every week. Now for your input. I'm taking a serious vote on Strawpoll.me/LivLawley about whether or not I should make videos on this channel or not. Please vote, I'll link to it in the description. Comment below if you want me to change the username of this channel to SuperLiv13 or Liv Lawley and also comment if you want me to make weekly videos on O2l. But that's it for this weeks video guys. Please vote and comment down below and if you want I'll see you guys...Very soon."

Ricky stopped the recording and sat next to me on the bed. He hugged me tightly. We sat in silence until he spoke up. "Do you want me to tell the others? And should we arrange a funeral?"

"No. Kian said he didn't want a funeral and he doesn't want me to tell you where he is. I'll tell all the others tonight. I don't know what to do with his stuff though." I look down.

"I can get Eboni to go to her friends' tonight and I'm sure Nash and Cameron won't mind us asking them to leave so when you're ready tell me. Now about his stuff, I don't know. What do you think is best?" Ricky looks down at me.

"I don't want to see them again. I feel like half of me is missing. He was my other half Ricky. He was my identical twin and we've been together and best friends from the first day."

***Ricky's P.O.V.***

"We've been together and best friends from the first day."

Her words stung as she spoke them. I wanted her to stop before I broke down as well but how could I ask her to do that?

"I want to tell them." She said.

"Tell who what?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"I want to tell the boys about Kian."

"Oh right. I'll get the boys at the table and the others out of the house." I stand up and leave Liv to prepare herself.

"Boys! House meeting! Get to the table now!" I yelled around the house. I walked down to the table and saw that Eboni, Trevor, Nash and Cameron were already at the table.

"Hey Eboni, did you want to go to a friends house for the night?" I asked her. Cameron and her exchanged glances and she nodded. She stood up from the table and walked upstairs to pack her bags. "And could you guys please leave? That sounds really mean but some stuff went down today and we need to talk about it. I'll text you later though?"

"Yea that's fine dude. We'll see you later or whatever." Cameron says a little too eagerly. They stand up from the table and begin the short walk back to their house.

Eboni comes running down the stairs, zipping her bag up as she runs. "You need a lift?" I ask.

"No it's fine. It's walking distance." She smiles.

"See ya sis." I hug her. She pushes away from me.

"Eww! Why did you hug me? Is something going on? You never hug me." She raises an eyebrow at me.

"It's none of your business now go have fun with Cameron." She rolls her eyes and walks out the front door.

I see Liv walking slowly down the stairs in front of me. "You ready?" She nods slowly. "Don't worry. Look to me if you need help." I hugged her before she walks past me.

"Thanks Ricky. You've made this so much easier." She smiles for the first time today.