To My Crushes

6th grade boy

I liked you for two years. When i was being bullied in sixth grade, you were the one who made me laugh. You never failed to make me laugh and that was what I loved about you. All my friends judged me for liking you, but I clearly didn't care. I don't know if you liked me back, and I will never know. I was young, but that crush stuck with me through 7th grade. 7th grade was cut short due to covid, and during that, all my crushes stopped. Every time I look through my 6th grade year book, I always see photos of us sitting at the same table. Thinking back to 7th grade, i remember I was so happy to find out you were in my math class.
There are two memories that still stick in my head, the one I will always be grateful for. The first memory is from 6th grade. It was near the end of the year and the bullying had gotten so bad, it started affecting my mental health. Outside of school was a rough time as well due to my dog passing. I was struggling in class, holding back tears. You did your best to make me laugh. You drew a smiley face on a water bottle, gave it a name, and acted like it was talking. That made me laugh so much in that moment. Nothing else mattered. I needed that laugh. I will always be grateful for that moment.
The second memory is not much, but I knew it made me happy at the time. We were doing something in math, it was different steps. Ex. Step one was individual work, step two was partner work, etc. I don't fully remember which was which, but I was on individual work when you started doin gate partner worked. We weren't friends, but you were about to ask me to be your partner, but then realized I was still on the previous step.
Those memories stuck with me. I don't why, but they did. I liked you for so many reasons at the time, but the main reason was because you made me laugh.