Last night ♪bojanxkäärijä♪

kuusitoista/šestnajst/sixteen

Jere's pov

Talking with Bojan relaxed me a lot. His voice fluttered through my ears like little butterflies and his words were so sweet.

Now I was kinda mad at Jure for interrupting our conversation. I wish I could talk to Bojan forever and ever. While he is my boyfriend he is also my best friend. He is just amazing.

After the call was over I went to talk with the dancer again. They were also the best at calming me down. You can't even realize, how stressed I was. Although I heard my chances were high all these thoughts were going through my head.

What if I mess up on stage? What if I fall? What if I forget the word? What if the predictions were fake?

"Jere, stop stressing." Etel said when she saw me almost shaking from all the panicking.
"But what if-" I tried to explain my worries.
"No, stop. Darling, you're the winner of everyone's hearts. Have you not been at the pre parties? Have you not heard them scream your name? Everyone loves you. Iove you (as a friend), the fans love you and you should also know that Bojan lives you."
"You and your words Etel. You have always been good at calming me down. Thank you. It means a lot." I hugged her.
"Of course." she messed my hair up a bit.

"Hey! You can be happy I have a stylist for the performance or I'd be really mad."
Etel just giggled.

Time skip

Czechia was on in that moment and that meant I was on after two songs. I really tried to be calm, of course everyone was.

I heard Loreen's performance and she did amazing. I heard she's my biggest competition but she's really kind if you meet her.

All I could do was try to keep my thoughts quiet. They were asking too many questions that just made me worry even more. I tried to think about good stuff, happy moments and that kinda things.

Bojan...

He made me happy for sure. He made me stop thinking about my performance and think about him. And that was great until it lasted.

"Käärijä, you're on in a minute." someone from the crew shouted.

Already? How does time go by so quickly? I got up, got ready to do the first scene where we just wave a t the camera and then eventually go on stage.

And so we did the first thing, waved at the camera and I imagined I was waving at Bojan. I technically was because (I hope) he was watching.

Now was the big moment. The dangers and me got up into the stage, I went into the box. In my head I heard something like a timer ticking for me to start.

Then I heard the music and all my thoughts dissapeared. I was in my moment, this was practically muscle memory at this point. Lyrics were spilling out of me like they were supposed to. All my moves were perfect, I didn't bump into anyone or anything. I was able to grab the ropes, the dancer were attached to. I was able to do everything I desired to do. I believe I sang perfectly, that's for the audience to judge. But like I heard after the show, everyone was cheering for me. While I was on stage I didn't hear anything but the music. Not even my own words.