Promises

Mothers day

It feels so weird on certain days like Mother's Day or Father's Day the two most awkward days of the year for me. All I hear about on those days from the other kids at church is how their mother was strong and their father did them wrong how some of them left while their mother stayed and became both parents. While some say that I feel so barren, I'm missing someone something in my life to fill in for my mother maybe another someone to always be there to hover over me and protect and look over me cover me like a mother would. Like a mother should be a role model for their son or daughter not drink things that are so impure definitely not water and sometimes smoke the occasional blunt,when I didn't know what it was. "Give me my reefer" she yelled at him and I was on her side and he tried to warn me to go and hide from her and her addiction but I didn't believe him. A couple of months later I wasn't with her anymore and I still felt empty and I still felt bored with what was going on in my house even though it was better then before. I love her with all my heart but I just wish that I could have a fresh new start with her, talk to her about what she did and how I feel about lies that were told but I think that I'll be a little too bold and I might hurt her with my words because a women's strongest weapons are her words, emotions,and how she feels.