Promises

Crying for no reason

Have you ever just found yourself crying for no reason. I mean like drake said " it's a new season and we still breathing" but a lot of the times I find a new reason to commit to my reason. All the bullying and teasing giving another person yet another reason to feel as though they have no meaning. A feeling that's like no other to feel like you have no purpose it just feels like I'm hurting myself. Pushing to hard to make this "new season" the best one ever when in reality so far it's my worst endeavor. Consistently telling myself "get it together" whenever I find myself letting go sometimes I may even feel like I want to give up forever. Consistently telling myself "it'll get better" and hearing the same words come from others but they're just too close for comfort when it come to stating facts there is no comfort because I'm hurt. Mentally, spiritually, forcing myself to change the emotions I feel into happiness and continuing to Try and concentrate on the positive instead of being so pessimistic. Consistently trying to change and take charge and change my way of thinking going from thinking big to thinking large people barging into my life and telling me about their own problems without wondering if I'm alright, and I keep myself so uptight, keep myself up at night to think of a new way to make the wrong things right not realizing that I can't do everything on my own and feeling like I can't even get help in my own home all alone. I find myself writing to express my emotions so nobody knows this is really how I feel, and it feels horrible to always be so pessimistic and always feel like nobody gives an actual FUCK about you. feeling like you're helping everyone and nobody is helping you. feeling like you care too much about everyone and nobody cares about you. feeling like there's nothing left to do but cry to yourself. But who cares cause you're just crying for no reason.