What Do You Want From Me?

It's Starting

I never expected this so soon. To be honest, I forgot. I don't know why I was freaking out so much. All he said was "hey." So I texted back and said the same. He replied almost instantly, asking what I was doing. Why did I feel so nervous texting him? I quickly replied and turned on my music and hopped in the shower. Gosh, why do I feel this way? I don't like how I feel. I tried to drown out my thoughts with my music blasting, and surprisingly it worked for a little bit, but then Ethan entered my mind again. It pissed me off. "Roxi, turn your music down before I come in there and smash your phone." Remi screamed. Jokes on her, the door's locked. Remi started banging on the bathroom door ruining my peace. "Turn off your music, I'm trying to sleep." Remi yelled. "Bitch please, you're not trying to sleep at 7:00, I'm not as dumb as you." I replied. Remi growled like the damn animal she is and stormed downstairs to probably snitch on me as she always does. Her footsteps are so loud, I can't tell if that's my sister or bigfoot.
I settled into my comfiest pjs and turned on a movie. I started to doze off but was quickly awoken by my phone buzzing. It's almost midnight, why is Ethan calling me? For some odd reason, I answered. I should've let ring. "Hello?" I answered in a confused tone. I honestly couldn't tell if I was dreaming or not. "Uh Roxi, can you meet me at the park next to our school, I'll see you there." Before I could say anything, he hung up. What the hell? It's like 11:30 and he wants to meet at a park. Am I being set up to die? I've barely known him for a day. My gut is telling me to go, so I started putting shoes and a jacket. I slowly crept downstairs and took the car keys and drove to see Ethan sitting on a park bench. He waves at me and I give him a half smile. I get out the car and start my way towards him. It was so dark, the only light was the almost broken streetlight which didn't really help much. Ethan looks at me with the biggest smile on his face. "I didn't think you'd actually come." Ethan says. "Well, it was either come or face you in school and be awkward and I rather do the first option." Ethan chuckled. Although, it was dark, I could still see Ethan's pearly, white smile, it made my heart warm. "I called you out here because I kept thinking about you, how weird you are." Umm, excuse me. Did he call me out here to just insult me? I scoffed at his statement and turned around to start walking back to the car but suddenly, he grabbed my hand. "I didn't mean a bad weird, a good weird," he continues, "you're like the funny type of weird and silly." Why couldn't he say this over the phone? This is so strange. "Thanks, I guess, I mean you couldn't say this over the phone?" I asked. "Well, what I am saying, I would like to get to know you more, like a friend."
I was taken aback a little bit. Why would he want to be friends with me? I'm not very intriguing or uniquely pretty." I mean, I guess we could be friends." I replied. He smiled at me then stared into my eyes. I never realized how pretty his eyes were. They were like a beautiful, light shade of brown. Like a warm cup of tea, or fall leaves. I quickly said my goodbyes then turned to leave. If mom finds out about this, I am as good as dead. Even worse if she finds out I took the car.

Ethan's POV:

Roxi is definitely an odd one. There's something about her that makes me want to know more. I didn't see her last year, I wonder what school she came from. I start to walk home, but then I step on something hard. It's a bracelet, it's Roxi's bracelet. It must've fallen off when I grabbed her hand. I'll just give it to her tomorrow. As I approach my front porch, my brother's sitting there, smoking a joint. "Milo, shouldn't you be asleep, instead of getting baked at midnight?" Milo's a year under me, a freshman. "The real question is, why were you meeting up with Roxi at midnight, dear brother?" Milo continues, "you're so loud on the phone, it's quite hilarious." "Milo, shut the fuck up before I tell mom and dad you're smoking again." I fire back. Mom and dad should've just ended with me and my older sister, Tamra but no, they had to have this bastard. "You won't tell mom and dad unless you want me telling them you snuck out to meet a girl. Who knows what y'all did in the 20 minutes you were gone?" I'm so tired of him. I scoffed at his response, and kicked him when walking to the door.

"Remi, wake up or else we're going to be late!" I screamed. "Okay, just shut up, your voice is like nails on a chalkboard." Remi replied. I walk downstairs to eat cold eggs my mom left on the stove and wait for Remi to do her dramatically, horrible makeup. I can't stop thinking about last night with Ethan. The way he smiled made my heart flutter and I didn't like it. It made me feel emotions I have never felt before. "Rox, where's mom?" Remi asks. "Oh, she didn't tell you, I'm driving." I reply. "Oh fuck no, I am not getting into a car with you, that's a safety hazard." Why is she this difficult. "For someone that doesn't have their license, I wouldn't be talking, plus your always free to walk, the school is not that far. You could use the exercise anyways, I noticed you can't fit into your jeans anymore and homecoming is in a couple of months." I said. It was mean but I didn't care, she's always a bitch to me. She stomped out of the house and surprisingly she walked to school. I'm glad she took my advice. I pulled up to the school and a familiar presence came up behind me. It was Ethan. "I saw your sister walk in and she didn't look to happy." He said. "Oh, you know her?" I asked. "Well, not really, you guys just look a lot alike." He replied. "You think, well you'll be real lucky if you don't meet her, she's an asshole to say the least, and I'm the prettier sister, don't cha think?" Ethan chuckled. I felt myself getting more comfortable with him and honestly, that scared me.
Our block before lunch was such a snooze, and Remi's death stares wasn't making it any better. I tried my best not to look at Ethan, and I think he was doing the same. He was the same everyday. Glance at me, I would catch him, then he'd blush and turn quickly. "Hey Ethan, since this class is a bore whaddya say we go get some actual food instead of what they have at this shitty school?" I asked. He seemed reluctant at first but agreed. "Hey Ms. Lenn, Ethan doesn't feel too good, mind if I take him to the nurse?" She stared at me, a little too long. She probably knew what we were doing but she still let us go. "Wait, Rox, are we walking there?" Ethan asks. What's with the nickname? Only my mom and sister call me that. Not even the friends I had called me that. Not even he called me that. Why am I overreacting so much? No, Ethan and I can't get close. Not again. Nothing like that will ever happen again. I feel a hand rest on my shoulder, I turn back and it was him. "Don't touch me!" I screamed. I felt my palms start to sweat, and I couldn't breathe. Everywhere I turned, he's all I saw. I felt myself falling, and everything went dark.