yeongyu oneshots

hatred

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mpreg mention, child neglect, drvvgs, abvvse

i hate my parents.

thats mean to say but if you were the child of choi yeonjun and beomgyu youd say it too. i dont know how they were allowed to raise me, i shouldve been in cps back then.

they get divorced then remarried, its all so confusing to me. then im the one getting stuck in the middle of it all, and i was supposedly not even planned.

they were reckless and young, beomgyu was only seventeen when he had me and yeonjun nineteen. sure its a little weird, but they didnt give a shit at the time.

whenever beomgyu was announced pregnant all hell broke loose, at least thats what uncle kai told me. hes the only one i consider a father figure. hell hes been a more father figure then my actual fathers!

sure i get it, it can be stressful and it just piles more work onto you but i hate them. i hate them so much for neglecting me, acting as if im not their blood child!

their relationship got especially worse this one time.

i was staying at their house since kai was too busy to watch me as uncle soobin went into labor, and they were arguing.. per usual.

im not sure what it was specifically but they were yelling about something, i could hear things breaking and smashing. screams and shouts, then it went silent. too silent for my liking.

i got up and ran out my room. sure i hate them but i wanted to make sure nobody was harmed or else id call the cops again.

i stood there wide eyed and jaw slacked.

beomgyu raised up a gun to yeonjuns face, beomgyus hand shaking and both equally shocked.

i saw beomgyus eyes shake and he dropped the gun, the gun wasnt loaded, it had no bullets so yeonjun didnt get shot.

yeonjun immediately hugged him and beomgyu broke down in his arms.

for a moment i felt sad for them.

i was only eleven at the time, crazy how fast time flies.

they've been doing this since they were young! they were 28 and 30 now! they needed to stop.

i didnt say anything, i just left and kept myself in my room. i wish they loved me more.

by the time i was twelve i started doing drvgs, its not good i dont suggest doing it, but it was the only way at the time i could cope.

later i drank alcohol and i drank a lot of it.

when they found out i was heavily yelled at, they grounded me and i was stuck in my room for days.

uncle kai would try to negotiate but they didnt budge.

after i was ungrounded i was forced to hand over all the drugs and alcohol i had stored. they even took away all my electronics.

i wish they would change, i want us to be a happy family like the ones i see at the park or on commercials.

i want to be loved by my biological parents, i need to feel at least an ounce of it.