Starved for love

Guilt

Ks: hum na mama bht bury hyn bht buri beti joh kabhi apko apky affection apky pyaar ko samajh hyi nhy paye I've wronged my upbringing I always made you feel traumatized mama please do forgive me (while crying and kissing her hands)

This was for the first time ks was crying in front of Ss and this made her feel pity as well as she was worried for her as she being her mother knew she's never ever gonna forgive herself so easily she definitely will make her own self guilty of all of this situation despite she wasn't aware of all the facts 

Ss: krishu kaya hogaya hy bety is myn apka koyi fault nhyi tha or to or despite eveything you still stood for me infornt of him, moreover mhjy mera beta mil gaya hyna that's the only thing that matters for me (she said while kissing her forehead)

while Ks immediately hugged her and was sobbing while from the door mirror hm was smilling after seeing there reunion and after a while ks excused 

ks: mama woh kouch kam hy jana pary ga but I'll leave haseena with you and promise I'll come to meet you in morning hmm tab tak do take alot alot care of yourself (and she left not before advising doctor once again for taking best possible care of her mum)

She got out of the room and left the hallway leaving everyone stunned as everyone had seen her in such a messed state for the first time her eyes were bloodshot her white shirt was fully drenced with bloof while she had her blazer in her arm 

For the time being  everyone forgot her and headed towards Ss inside the room after inquiring about he health everyone left while Ss asked hm to stay 

Hm: g mama apny bulaya is there something we need to talk about (taking a seat near her)

Ss: beta please go search for ks you don't know what she would be feeling right now she's hard from outside buy from inside her heart is so fragile that i surely know right now she won't be in her correct mental state and one more thing haseena and i know only you can handle her sirf ap hi ho jo ussy samjh skty ho beta she's your partner or ap woh pehly insaan ho jis sy woh apni feelings share krty hy beta (she said while holding and rubbing hm's palm)

Hm: mama i know and do trust me myn sab badal don gyi everything bas mjy tohra time dijye myn nhyi janty is time she would be she's still not that much open with me due to her shy natue but I definitely I'm not gonna leave my baby alone (she said with her dimple smile)

Ss: thankyou so much haseena 

Hm: kaya mama ap bhi she's my wife now her every matter is mine also or moms bhi kabhi thankyou bolti achi lagti hyn (she stood up while kissing her forehead and left)

Ss: bas khuda inhy hamesha sath aur asy rakhy kisi ki nazar na lagy mery bachon ko 

Soon hm got into her police jeep and drove towards her police station she surely was tensed despite she has shown everyone that she's okay but she wasn't first of all ks's dad was the murderer of her parents moreover she definitely knew ks's guilt would surely effect their relationship her hands were trembling due to the haunting thoughts of facing her parents killer and ks 

finally she reached her station parked her jeep got in with a serious face and inside she saw ks's father sitting on the chair near constable's desk with handcuffs on the other side when she got in her cabin she saw ss with ks.

ks: mam i want to register a FIR would you register it please (in the most cracked yet painful voice)

Sm: haseena karishma i think you both need some time together after than myn khud krishu FIR register karon gyi 

Hm: nhy di duty hours chal rhy hyn and i surely know karishma will understand all this (on which Ks nodded)

and the three of them got out from the cabin hm nodded the constable to get Mr. singh behind the bars and he did so in the meantime while ks was standing there without expressions Ms.anket entered in and as soon as she saw ks sitting at santu's desk registering a  FIR she grabbed her collar and made her stand up from the chair and gave few jerks to her

Ma: myn bilkul sahi khty thyi tum ho hi is layak sharm nhyi atyi apny baap ky khilaf FIR likhwaty howy haan (yelling  at her while ks was standing like a lifeless body)

In her rage Ma slapped ks so hard that for once she trembled from her place and was about to fall and her teehth rattled but hm held her and gave Ma a tight slap 

Hm: hath ksy lagaya meri karishma ko haan bol isi hath ko tor kr wapis hath myn wapis na dy diya na toh mera naa bhi haseena nhyi constable inhy bhi hawalat myn daliya under the charge of creating violence inside the thana (she roared and everyoone was shocked by seeing sudden chnage in Hm's behavior as fo the first time she has yelled at someone after than she immediately wanted to hug ks but due to being in thana she couldn't she kept looking at ks whose face was downwards towards the floor and a tear dropped on the floor)

as soon as ks got the FIR done she was about to leave when her father yelled from the bars 

 "abhi toh khel shuru howa hy agy agy dekho hota hy kaya"

but she left ignoring it while hm too left towards her cabin after some time by 8pm at night Hm reached home she gave her work essentials to the servants and got upstairs in search of ks she looked for her everywhere in the house but she was no where but in the end she heard someone's sobs from the balcony she opened the balcony's slider and saw ks hugging her knees and sobbing and the other moment she saw a blade placed just aside her and it's tip was filled with blood and her heart sank by seeing ks doing self harm and by seeing this hm panicked and tried to rush towards her but ks stopped her

Ks: hey stop don't come towards me otherwise I'll hurt myself (she wasn't in her senses) don't come you too will get destroyed no no please stay away (by placing the blade near her arm)

Hm: acha fine Karishma I won't come but please throw it away na baby plz for me plz (she said while she too was confused what to do)

Ks: paka you won't come na (she I sured once again insured before throwing the blade away)

Hm: promise baby don't you trust me (she calming her down)

Ks: I do but .. (was unable to speak due to continuous sobs)

And hm was finally successful in diverting her mind and she secretly came towards her and seated next to her and eventually ks hugged her and hm too rubbed her bag to came her down and in between this ks slept due to hours of crying hm took her inside changed her shirt and made her lay on bed she applied bandage on her ankels which she eventually cut with the blades hm kissed ks's forehead and was crying seeing her terrible condition too layed with her as she wasn't ready to leave ks in such state

Hm: Karishma baby it's the last time you felt this much horrible haan myn sab theek kr don gyi bas tohra sa or time phir myn or Meri Karishma I'll make you forget your horrible past and traumatizing memories

That's up for the part I'm back after my boards

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