The Beauty & The Brains

12

Trigger Warning ⚠️:

Attempted Suicide 

BPD 

This Chapter Is skippable. 

It's also very sad

Hearts

Jm

"Aya" He told me he had to work and I said I should go back too. So now we're getting ready together.

"Yes Love?" I ass leaving the bathroom. He smile at my straight hair and red lipstick.

"Are you almost done?" He ask grabbing my heels. I smile and nod. He puts my shoes on the ground and helps me into them. I press a kiss to his lips giggling.

"Thank you"

"You're Welcome" We walk to the car. I get in the driver seat. I want to drive today I think it will be nice, to get back into my old routine. Also because Spencer can't drive on his knee.

I drive all the way to the FBI Headquarters and go up to my floor. Larissa greeting me with a huge hug.

Spencer's pov

Aya's Office

I step off the elevator with our lunch in hand.

"Aya stop " Larissa says from the doorway. I drop the food and run to her office. Aya has a gun pointed to her head.

"Aya"I say gaining her attention. She looks up at me and smiles.

"Baby let's not do that." I say taking a step forward.

"Larissa grab my gun." I say raising my arms above my head and interlocking them behind my head. She takes the gun and puts it in her waistband.

"Lets put that down darling." I say stepping towards her. She frowns then looks at her hand. The recognition of what she's doing causes her to instantly put it down and back away. I pull her into my arms. She wraps her arms around my waist sobbing. Larissa comes and takes her gun and runs out of the room. I press a kiss to her head.

"I didn't know what I was doing. Spencer i- I don't know why I did that." She says through sobs.

"I don't want to die Spencer"

"I know baby, I know." I coo. I pick her up and carry her to the couch and lay her down. I sit with her until she falls asleep with silent tears running down my face.

After a few moments of getting myself together i pull my phone out to call Amoura.

"A A G Dr Salazar." She says

"She just held a gun to her head." I say through a sob.

"What?"

"I was bringing her lunch and I found her with a gun to her head Moura." I explain as tears run down my face.

"Is she okay? Where is she now?" She ask frantically. There's shuffling heard through the phone.

"I'm leaving, family emergency please don't call. Texts only." She says to someone.

"We're in her office."

"I'll be there in 5 minutes" she says before hanging up. I pull Aya closer knowing I won't be able to see her for a while. I press kisses to her forehead and play in her hair. After a few seconds Amoura, Seb and Alex are in the doorway. The tears fall faster seeing the looks on their faces.

"Is she okay?" Alex asks

"What happened?" Sebastian asks

"I came up to bring her lunch and she had a gun po-pointed at her head. It's like she didn't have control of her own body. When I asked her to put the gun down it's like she snapped back to reality. I can't lose someone else like that. I-i ca-nt, I wou-wouldn't survive that again." I say shaking my head. The tears pour out of me as they look at me with empathy in their eyes. Amoura pulls me in a hug.

Aya's pov

Tears and talking wake me up. I open my eyes to see a paramedic with Spencer, Alex, Amoura and Sebastian.

"Before you um, leave can I have a moment alone with her?" Spencer asks solemnly.

"Yes quickly." The emt says before leaving the room with my siblings. I sit up and look at him. His face is tear stained, red, and puffy.

I caused this.

I caused all of this.

I caused his pain and sadness. I'm hurting him, this is hurting him.

"Pretty Girl" he coos

"I'm sorry" i say crying.

"No my love don't be sorry. It's okay. I promise everything will be okay." He says pressing a sad kiss to my lips.

"I don't know why I did that, I really didn't know what I was thinking I don't want to die. I cant lose you." I say as tears roll down my face. He wipes my face and holds me close to his chest. I probably won't see him for a while.

"How long will I have to stay there?"

"2 weeks, it's a nice in-patient facility and I can visit you on Saturdays and Wednesdays." He says solemnly. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I could be happy and be the best person I can be. I break down into full sobs. He tries to comfort me but I pull away. I don't deserve him anymore.

"Don't come visit me, you deserve better than this." I say getting up and walking out of the room. They stand there looking at their feet, well besides Amoura. She's sobbing into Alex's chest.

"Love" i mutter causing her to look up. She turns and pulls me to her arms. She presses a kiss to my head.

"I'm sorry"

"Don't be sorry Aya, you're going to be okay." She says wiping her eyes.

"I can't do this to Spencer, tell him not to visit please. Tell him to move on and stay away please Love. Don't let him near me." I plead. Alex pulls her away from me. My grip on her arm a bruising strength. I put my hands on my head.

"I'm sorry" I mumble repeatedly. I go over to the paramedics. I take my cuffs and hand them the keys then cuff myself.

Alex's pov

I pull Amoura away from Aya's grip. She realized what she did and begins mumbling incoherent words. I grab both Amoura and Sebastian, pulling them away. This whole situation is horrible. I go to make sure she's okay.

"The cuffs aren't necessary Ms. Salazar."

"Yes they are, i hurt my sister. I hurt all of them, I don't want to hurt anyone." She says through sobs.

They put her on the gurney and cover her so she can leave without being seen. I hold her hand through the blanket down to the ambulance parked outside. They load her in and speed away. I wipe the tears threatening to fall before going back into the building.

Aya and Sebastian are in her office with Brian and Larissa.

"Alright I- I'm going to grab a few things from my office then I'll drive you home." Brian says with a red face and puffy eyes. Spencer gets up and walks away. Well limps considering his knee. The siblings being too concerned with their own emotions I follow after him.

"Alex leave me alone alright, i get you have to pretend to care for Amoura's sake but i'm not her." He says picking up the bag of food and pressing the elevator button. I open my mouth to respond but he cuts me off.

"Save it for a real Salazar." He says then steps on the platform the door closing behind him.