Lovers Rock II wlw

3.

JORDAN KROWN / FIRST PERSON

After first period, the classes after were pretty repetitive. I have B lunch so I have to wait until after fourth period to meet my friends.

I walk into my fourth period with music playing on my headphones. I was listening to "Meddle About" by Chase Atlantic. With the loud music playing through my ears I couldn't even hear my friend Clenton yelling at me to come sit by him.

He finally lost his shit and took my headphones off so i can finally acknowledge him.

I look up and excitement washes over my face.

"Fuck yeah this class is already better!"

He looks up and sighs. "I would wait to say that, look who is also in here."

I look to my left and pure horror replaced the excitement that I was feeling just a second ago. Tommy Styles and Iridessa Connors are sitting next to each other while sharing frequent whispers.

shit.

If you are close with me, you would know that in my sophomore year I was, lets just say an experimenter.

Tommy was having an annual new year's party that for some reason I was invited to. If you are close with me, you would also know that completely sober me slept with him.

Yes. I slept with him and even worse, I ran away in the middle of him giving me head. Leaving me horrified and him horny. Ever since then, I have avoided him and anything he has to say. This year will be hard to do so. But thanks to him, I know that I hate dick and i'm amazing at giving head.

Iridessa is a different story. After I came out to Clenton and Tara, Tara thought she was texting me, asking about my sexuality but accidentally texted Iridessa. Tara felt so guilty that she didn't even tell me. She thought I would hate her forever. I found out about this when Iridessa finally fessed up and confessed her feelings to me.

We dated for 5 months, and within those five months, I felt like we had no real feelings for each other, she just wanted good head. I don't blame her, but I didn't want to be a tool. After months of being used for good sex. I found out through Clenton that Iridessa had been sleeping with Tommy, the guy that I ran away from while receiving.

I don't even like thinking about it because I get pure embarrassment, but now I know what I want most. Just a normal last year of school. Is that even possible though?

Clenton drags me to come sit by him. I face away from Tommy and Iridessa so they don't see the embarrassment plastered on my face.

"Don't even think about them Jj, they are assholes who can't get over a situation that happened awhile ago." Clenton is the best supportive gay best friend anyone could ask for.

Conversations were interrupted as the teacher makes her announcements.

"Settle down, Tommy stop sitting on your desk and act like an adult. I need all eyes on me so we can get this class over with."

I couldn't agree more

I fix my self on my seat and start bouncing my leg waiting for the sound of the bell to ring.